Hey everyone!
I'm young and I've always felt different from the male crowd.
I have always hanged around with females, not because of my environment or whatever, but only because they are the only ones I really "connected" with.
I've always had a taste for men and have never viewed females being sexually attractive.
I remember always playing with girl dolls at a young age and dressing up when it was just mom at home.
My mother even told me that she thinks its a genetic disorder, nothing that she or my dad would have done.
A few months ago I came out to her telling her I was gay, she said she already knew. Then I moved to the next step and told her I wish I was female.
She was a little confused and not sure what to think of it, but she has become more accepting of it.
She believes if it makes me happy, then I should be a female and start taking hormones, but I cannot start dressing or acting female until I am out of school and have a steady job.
We made an appointment to see a Pediatrician this Wednesday to discuss taking female hormones for me to begin my transition. I continue to stress to my mother how I really hope the doctor will prescribe me these hormones because I FEEL that the sooner I take them the better the results will turn out, seeing how I am still going through puberty and my hormones are bouncing off the wall.
I am currently residing in south Alabama, some would say the bible belt of the country, pretty ironic though that we have one of the nations largest gay clubs.
Still I am worried about the pediatrician I will be seeing, will she be some religous maniac who will take her own personal beliefs about the situation and not subscribe them to me, simply because she thinks that I will CHANGE(not going to happen), or that I am too young to be taking such "body altering effects," even though those are would just be her excuses simply because they oppose her religous views and I will burn in hell for doing such things.
or could this pediatrician be accepting and open-minded about the situation?
I'm really not sure what to expect, I just hope I find an open minded doctor who can understand how I feel and that this is REALLY what I want!
I know I cant expect to just walk in and ask for hormones simply because I dont feel myself. I'm hoping since my mother will be with me and agreeing then maybe we could pursuade the doctor that this GID is nothing new and Iv'e always felt I'm in the wrong body. I REALLY hope she doesn't make me see a therapist or psychiatrist and get a referral letter for this. I feel like time is ticking before I get manly physical attributes.
I will post a picture of me, without make up, just me all natural. I think I'm still quite fem looking. I just feel like I need these hormones before I expled with manlyness!
Does anyone have any tips or advice for me?..past experiences? I will be happy to read all responses!
Thanks, andi!
