It was biggest fear in transitioning, I was scared of hormones even more than FFS/SRS(despite am still pre-op). Me I took 3 months, hadn't I fallen on this site by hasard, I perhaps would have had never have the guts to start taking hormones. When I newly came here the 1st day, a sister told me something THAT MARKED ME FOR LIFE and it's what boosted me. She said 'I WAS SCARED TOO BUT THEN I REALIZED IT WAS SCARIER TO END THE REST OF MY LIFE AS MALE'. Hearing this I started as soon as possible I could. I can't remember the nick of that sister but whoever she is, I gratefully thank you from the bottom of my heart if you still remember me.

And you? Did you have any hesitation? How long did you take to jump in the water?

I think I pretty much wanted it the moment I heard it's possible.

I had pretty much the same sentence said to you in my head only that I think I felt suicidal about the idea of being a guy for some reason.

I can't explain why but it's TOO TERRIBLE to be a guy or not to be a girl for some reason.

I have some hesitation in me.
My partner is someone who accepts me as I am, respects me, and loves me deeply, and is honest enough with me and himself to say, straight out, that there's no way that we'll ever know exactly what testosterone will do to our relationship. We have every intention to stay together as well as we can, but if this change in me will lead either one of us to just not be attracted to the other any more... then we'll have to split up.
It's terrifying.

Top that off with a healthy serving of "What if my X decides (with plenty of help from his adopted mother) to use this as a way to to try and take my daughter away from me (and put her in the hands of his adopted mother who's already messed three people up so bad they can't manage their own lives)?"... well.. I'm sure you see what I'm getting at.

Then there's the simple fact that I do not know exactly what it'll do to me and my body. I have a pretty good idea, but no two people are affected exactly, 100%, the same by any medication, so I needed to be absolutely sure I wanted to chance that unknown before I sought help.

But I didn't "hesitate" per say, I sought information and chose to wait 'till I was sure.

The hesitation I have within my mind is outweighed about a thousand times over by my sheer need to do this. I'm pushing to get my T but even now that I'm dead certain that this is what I want to do. I'm dead certain I'm ready to make that step. I still have to face the fact that the Icelandic system tells me that I have to wait up to a year (usually it's a year, no ifs ands or buts, but I've been out amongst friends for a long time so there's a chance I can shave a couple of months off that), while I go about my business, same as usual (as real life experience), before they'll give me the prescription.

Once I accept me for me, I tried to find HRT any  where I could, but 25 Years ago it was had to find anyone that would give them to you.  That was part of the rest for my detransitioning.

But this go round and the internet it was alot easier.  Now that I have lost my health care, it is back to my original source.

I have been so ready for this that I would not hesitate anything, except for the funds to pay for it.


Janet

My hesistation was due to wanting to understand the risks and benefits. If it was too risky, then no thanks.  As well, I needed to understand what the limits would be for a person of my age.  Once I was comfortable with those things I asked my doc.... 

As a dad of 3 kids, it has been a kind of taboo and just what if. Some of my friends who are professional doctros recommend me not to take HRT, although they truely accept and acknowldege my transsexualism. I think their advice is sincere.

Barbie~~

Quote from: Shelina on September 19, 2009, 08:17:59 AM
I can't remember the nick of that sister but whoever she is

This person sounds like a smart cookie, you should listen to her more often. I suspect your'e more cousins than sisters though, but it's just semantics I suppose   

I hesitated about four minutes, because the child-proof cap on my Estradiol almost derailed my entire transition. Finally managed to figure it out and felt dumb afterword but it's a fun memory.

I have some health issues.  I had to get a lot of checking done, and a lot of blood work.  Then I had to start very slowly and ramp up gradually.  Even still my blood is checked with each tiny increase.  So yeah, slow and steady.  If this is for the rest of your life, don't rush it.


Kristi

I hesitated long enough to get the script to the apothecary and that was about it. Waiting the two weeks or so before being able to see the endoc was a downer but the best things in life are worth waiting for I guess.

I agree with Myself (haha...that is so funny) except currently I just don't want to be male.  I too started soon after I did research and found out what it can do.  I really had no idea.

Ok, I'll throw a little twist in here. For me I had two reasons for taking HRT. One of course is the obvious. The second is that I had very low T levels. So low that I contracted Osteoporosis. The Dr's tried me on Boniva, but, I am one of the lucky ones that cannot take Boniva because of the very severe side effects. And, they couldn't just boost my T, because of an enlarged prostate. So the only real option left was to take estrogen. If not for my being TS then for helping to cure the osteoporosis.

I've always wondered why these two issues came on so close together. I knew that I wanted the E for my being TS. I just was floored that being TS was not the primary reason it was prescribed. My Dr's are scratching their heads too, though.

So, to answer the question, not a moments doubt nor hesitation about taking HRT. When I knew I could, I couldn't get to the pharmacy fast enough!


Dawn 

There was ZERO hesitation. I was only 13 when I figured out what was needed and the birth control pill was new on the market (1962) so I got them by whatever means possible until I turned 18 and could get them legally. By then I had also found a doctor willing to prescribe them because he knew I was going to take them anyway.

One side effect of the early birth control pills was "morning sickness" from the VERY high oestrogen levels (10mg) so I was a 14 year old with morning sickness LOL!