I have been trying to cope with it for all my life and It just got to the point I had to tell them.  And just don't see it getting any easier to deal with the internal struggle as time goes on.  My mom is pretty upset about it and didn't really take it very well.  I really have my doubts but who knows.  I have always thought I was a girl since I was 3 or 4.

My fiancee is freaked out about it and who knows what will happen there.  I guess as much as it hurts I'm glad I told her, I don't think it would have been fair for her to get married to me and not really know who I really am.  I read so many stories about people trying to live the norm and then finally they just have to be who they are. 

Today is probally the most I have ever cried in my life, but atleast today is almost over.  Next step is therapy and then what ever happens towards being happy.

*hugs*

I applaud your courage to finally tell them who you really are, despite how hard it was for you and them both to hear. Now you'll be able to begin the process to proceed forward to being the woman you are. I highly doubt your mother's belief of it being a pituitary tumor caused it. It just is what it is, especially when you said you've felt that way since you were 3-4.

I wish you the best in the journey that lies ahead, and know that we are all here for you .

hugs hun its all down hill (with bumps lol) from here you just put the worst of it behind you
jessica