Even though hormones change your moods i dont think they change how you think. Me personally, I want hormones because I want others to see me as the guy I am. I want to have the deep voice and rough skin I feel like Im supposed to have. With the high t already in my body, it feels like destiny.

I was born intersex.  The real reason was to combat all the artificial poison the doctors had been putting into my body without my consent since I reached a pubescent age.

I started taking hormones to cure the nagging constant depresson and unhappiness that has been part of my life since my teens.  I have always been different from the norm and have felt completely depressed by having to live life as a man.   Since my early teens, I have wanted to be female but I have supressed my inner self.   I felt I had to live up to other's expectations and that did not involve make up dresses and boobs.   After a life of setbacks and disappointments, I am determined to lead the life that I, not others, want.

I think we now established a fairly consistent set of 'whys', all pretty similar imo...


What I dont get, is why the topic is phrased this way.... the 'real' reason implies the reason you normally give is a lie..... like what is your 'secret hehe' motivation for hormones? Which makes me more than a tad concerned.

As said by others I take hormones as my body won't naturally produce the correct ones.  I hated the fact the world saw me wrong; I thought about hormones for many years and now i don't. 

Quote from: Shelina on October 16, 2009, 02:51:27 AM
Each of us embarked in this journey with different aims. Some wanted boobs, other less hair, others booty & hips etc... To be honest, I don't really know why I started taking hormones. Supposedly to be eligible for SRS, to have boobs, smoother skin and think like a girl. There are some surgeons who accept doing SRS without being on hormones + I can do the silicone implant directly + I was always a girl in my head. I am just in fact flowing with the 'mass' by taking hormones. When I look back I don't really know the real reason I am taking it and if it is really that necessary. Maybe I started taking it cos I'll need to take it anyway after SRS to avoid the osteoporosis of the pre-menopause effect.

But what's the REAL reason you all pre-ops started taking hormones, is it that necessary after all?

Because I can't stand being stuck in a male body, I can't even stand the thought and having to say I'm in a male body.

Because in my 21 years of living, everything I can remember about my life up until now tells me that I knew I wasn't supposed to be male, even if I didn't realize it, since I was at least 5. And because now that I DO realize it, I won't be happy until I do everything in my power to set things the way I feel like they were supposed to be.

That's the real reason I'm going to start taking hormones (I'm still working on the "getting them" part, but there isn't the slightest doubt in my mind that I will, and soon).

Quote from: Miniar on October 16, 2009, 10:40:37 AM
"I don't have any testicles."

This. And estrogen feels like a sedative. I can't think straight anymore, and it's horrible and frustrating.

Also the analogy of a gas-powered car (but I am too lazy to pull up the quote.)

Do not want estrogen to continue to deform my body. I feel like a guy and I want to look like one too. (And sound, and smell.) It would only be right. To get out of the "female box."

I took hormones because I wanted to turn into a vampire  Nom, Nom, Nom!

Quote from: The None Blonde on October 17, 2009, 06:16:00 PM
I think we now established a fairly consistent set of 'whys', all pretty similar imo...


What I dont get, is why the topic is phrased this way.... the 'real' reason implies the reason you normally give is a lie..... like what is your 'secret hehe' motivation for hormones? Which makes me more than a tad concerned.

I got the same impression which is why I haven't replied.

I wanted to see what direction the thread took.

Quote from: Susan Dundee on October 16, 2009, 04:35:22 PM
To make the appearance of my body (hips, breasts, skin,) be female.  To get rid of the male smell caused by testesterone (yuk).

Susan

This and especially the male funky smell!  I do NOT miss that part!  Now I can smell other types of smells on guys which I suppose might be pheromones. Kinda like sweat but different.

Quote from: Shelina on October 16, 2009, 02:51:27 AM
Each of us embarked in this journey with different aims. Some wanted boobs, other less hair, others booty & hips etc... To be honest, I don't really know why I started taking hormones. Supposedly to be eligible for SRS, to have boobs, smoother skin and think like a girl. There are some surgeons who accept doing SRS without being on hormones + I can do the silicone implant directly + I was always a girl in my head. I am just in fact flowing with the 'mass' by taking hormones. When I look back I don't really know the real reason I am taking it and if it is really that necessary. Maybe I started taking it cos I'll need to take it anyway after SRS to avoid the osteoporosis of the pre-menopause effect.

But what's the REAL reason you all pre-ops started taking hormones, is it that necessary after all?

My main reason was to try and get female fat distribution and boobs.......but it didn't happen so I'm now seeking other ways of trying to get a female shape.....any ideas how to do it?

Quote from: The None Blonde on October 17, 2009, 06:16:00 PM
I think we now established a fairly consistent set of 'whys', all pretty similar imo...


What I dont get, is why the topic is phrased this way.... the 'real' reason implies the reason you normally give is a lie..... like what is your 'secret hehe' motivation for hormones? Which makes me more than a tad concerned.

It probably ties in with the muted status of the original poster.

bewcause I'm too short and too "pretty" to get read as "male" without at least sideburns.  Losing the soprano range in my singing voice is starting to ->-bleeped-<- with my head, though.

I guess I'm just slow.  (I've always known that. )  And yet once again I am the odd person out.

The real reason I started hormones was because I thought I was a cross-dresser and the hormones would soften my contours enough to be more presentable.

Once they kicked in, and I felt what it was like to operate on the right grade of fuel, I began to realize what I had known when I was 4 but had thoroughly repressed: I'm really a girl.

But originally, taking them was to make my body more androgynous.  What can I say?

- Kate

(newbie here
I am one of "Those Who Do Not Want Surgery or a Real-Life Experience" people they talk about on page 14 of SOC V6. Prenatally exposed to DES, I am bean pole with intersexed features and have had no trouble passing since before I even started hormones. I thrive on presenting as my female self in public whenever I can. But there is too much I enjoy about my male life and it would be too big of an impact on the things my wife and I spent the last 20 years building for me to live full time as a woman. I was prescribed a typical estrogen/testosterone blocker regimen because my gender dysphoria was a horrible life sucking malaise I could barely control by moving closer and closer to transition. I'm not sure how much longer I could have survived if I hadn't been able to fool my brain into thinking it was in the right body. I accept and welcome the physical changes hormones bring, but they were not my purpose for starting HRT.

Ginny

Quote from: heatherrose on October 18, 2009, 06:57:38 PM
Satan came and sat down at my table, while I was eating beef and broccoli at
the Kat Wok Buffet. He told me that I was going to be the mother of his child,
just then the buffet attendant refilled the shrimp foo yung, I excused my self
to go get some before it ran out again. When I returned he was gone. A few
days later, I was overcome with an uncontrollable need to become a woman.

This is exactly what happened to me, but I ran out and took hormones to become a man so I couldn't have Satan's child.
Ok seriously Like everyone else said because my body could not produce the right ones. I needed them to feel right in my skin and to help make the exterior match the interior.
Myles

Quote from: Virginia on January 17, 2010, 06:52:41 PM
(newbie here
I am one of "Those Who Do Not Want Surgery or a Real-Life Experience" people they talk about on page 14 of SOC V6. Prenatally exposed to DES, I am bean pole with intersexed features and have had no trouble passing since before I even started hormones. I thrive on presenting as my female self in public whenever I can. But there is too much I enjoy about my male life and it would be too big of an impact on the things my wife and I spent the last 20 years building for me to live full time as a woman. I was prescribed a typical estrogen/testosterone blocker regimen because my gender dysphoria was a horrible life sucking malaise I could barely control by moving closer and closer to transition. I'm not sure how much longer I could have survived if I hadn't been able to fool my brain into thinking it was in the right body. I accept and welcome the physical changes hormones bring, but they were not my purpose for starting HRT.

Ginny

How long ago did you start? Because a typical HRT dose is going to bring drastic external changes and pretty much force a real life experience. Plus your sexual function and desire will most likely change.

I had survived being sick for a long time and lost a lot of my hair. I had been diagnosed for BPH so I figured it would be the best way to 1. develop the feminine traits I so desired & help to stop my hair loss   2. decrease the size of my prostate relieving myself of a little problem I had.   3. so I could at least feel like I was a woman.

I underestimated the extent of the effect it would have on me-even a very low dose-especially in how I think.

I forgot to say I was very agressive sexually and I wanted to get rid of the way testosterone made me. I was a wreck emotionally and 4. I wanted to see if E would calm my disphoria-and it did-completely. I hope to go back on it this week. I can feel the T level increasing and I hate the way it makes me think. I also was taking Spiro for a time and it had a dramatic effect upon my T levels.  The E did not decrease my sexual appetite either like I thought it would but Spiro did.

Randi

Several months, Autumn. Very minimal physical changes with no problems presenting as a male. I'm 50 and had to make adjustments to my sexual function years ago because of a back injury. If anything, it has improved with the freedom to be myself from HRT.

Ginny