here i am again.it has been a while.i was so happy the last year i didn;t feel the need to cry in someones shoulder.i was in a relationship.a perfect one.but again he did not know my status.(pre-op). don;t ask me why.but he broke with me.not relavant reason with me being ts(he did not know as i told you).also i had a very good job.the knew my status since in greece i can not change my name pre op and had no problem. BUT my job is over.it finished and it was not renewed
so, no job no boyfriend .and the question keeps coming back
why can i not decide to have srs to start my life
why i hesitate
why i make relationships with men they do not know and live the dream for a while?

Deniz, SRS is a big step.  It is normal to hesitate, to question, to doubt.  In the US you must live in your target gender for a year before you can have SRS.  I don't know how it works in Greece.  Do you live as a woman?  Are you on hormones?  In my little world where I live, I needed to be doing both of those things before I could schedule SRS.

We all go through periods of self-doubt.  Being jobless and without a relationship will make you doubt yourself even more.  That's natural.  But things can get better.

Quote from: deniz on November 01, 2009, 03:28:12 PM
why can i not decide to have srs to start my life

Start your life anyway.  SRS will not solve all your problems and will not magically make everything wonderful.  Don't wait for SRS.  Start to live now.

- Kate

but i live as a woman.i can not pass as a boy anymore.but i can not change my name:( i am woman with a man;s name.so finding a job will be really hard.as for boyfriend i am attractive but i make shorts relationships before i am discovered or before they ask for sex.in greece you can make a boy wait 6 months easily.so. i make short term relationships.the sad thing is i fall in love.and the break up becomes difficult

Deniz, if you don't feel sure about srs then you're not ready for it. You will however find support from us here no matter where you're head & heart reside.