I, am mtF, I've been on hrt for almost 8yrs, I have run into a distribution problem, with my spiro, this is my fault & I offer no excuse, I am posting this here because I can't or don't wanna think. I am a physically small person, I could never scare anyone, I do not want to fight a man I want to riptorn the face off of a grizzley bear, I HATE  this! 

---

Post Merge: November 16, 2009, 12:23:03 AM

---

Things are not going good today I dont think love or hate. I only have anger and rage not at anyone but at everything & everyone. Its not focused I cant focus. You better know what you are doing and dont abuse t and if all you feel is unfocused hate and rage like me you have youtself to blame

Ya know, I suppose I feel for you, considering we've all been through tough times, but testosterone has a COMPLETELY different effect on mtfs like yourself than it does on ftm guys who NEED it.

And not to exacerbate things, but this kind of thing really belongs in PMS Zone.

SD

Hormonal fluctuations do that. Especailly when levels of the "wrong hormone" are creeping up.

Your description of how you feel is very similar to how most of us feel pre-T. You could say that E does the same thing to us as T does to you.

Umm not to split the mold but I am more angry on T than I was ever before. 

Jay

I'm sorry for using the term "abusing T", I was WAY out of line.

I think I'm more angry as a whole, but I find it MUCH easier to handle when I get angry. I get less emotional and weepy.

I'm actually a  lot less angrier on T than I was estrogen. A lot more mellow now. Totally different person in those terms. No more rage whatsoever.