What is it about being a woman? 

Yesterday I was talking to this guy, just chattering away in Kate mode, and he starts looking at me like he's enraptured.  I keep talking but can feel myself getting all squishy inside, and I'm thinking huh?

I mean, I'm not even attracted to this guy, but just because he's looking at me all googly-eyed I'm ready to pull out the mattress.  What's that all about?

- Kate

I honestly don't know... I don't analyse it, i just enjoy it, and take it as a sign that i like someone, though like doesnt have to go further if i dont want it to. Feelings and emotions are wonderful, relish them and enjoy people.

Nice, isn't it 

Too bad it didn't happen more often .... too bad it didn't happen more often with guys I am attracted to! LOL!

I remember being in the cue at the supermarket last week, and I caught sight of this gorgeous guy in the next cue over... he caught me looking and we sortof embarassededly smiled at eachother... then the checkout lady got impaitent and yelled 'next please' louder than necessary to snap me out of it >< *sigh* Addonis had human form that day.... and he was carrying baked beans.

I sometimes catch guys checking out my butt ( Thank God for Padding ) and it makes me smile. 

I have turned around a couple of times and just smiled at them.  They could stop traffic with that red face.  



Janet

Well, I never expected any man to look googly-eyed at me, but I really didn't expect it to start turning me to mush.  I've been around the block a few times and I've had my shots, but this is new territory.

It's got to be the hormones.

- Kate

Quote from: K8 on November 22, 2009, 05:03:49 PMIt's got to be the hormones.

Whatever ..... But whatever it is, it is pretty universal! When my girlfriend and I go out for lunch it's not uncommon for one to poke the other for "staring" ... of course sometimes we are both staring and there's no one to do the poking LOL!

It tripped me out to have guys look at me like that at first. But that's just what guys do

But yeah, what tripped me out more was that "squishy" feeling inside myself

I didn't expect to have that type of reaction and allot of questions about myself started popping into my mind

I miss Blockbuster Boy %)-

Oh yeah, theres this guy that is part of the Door staff at the students union... he always seems to be working the same events as me... Whenever i go outside for a cigarette hes usually on the smoking area, we always chat... hes kinda cute....

Oh geez. Girls we hit the nail on the head here! I am really just in awe of this guy in my class. He's not the most attractive guy in the world but his demeanor and intelligence rolled into one sends chills up my spine!

I love that feeling

Quote from: K8 on November 22, 2009, 05:03:49 PM
Well, I never expected any man to look googly-eyed at me, but I really didn't expect it to start turning me to mush.  I've been around the block a few times and I've had my shots, but this is new territory.

It's got to be the hormones.

Historically, if women didn't get that mushy internal feeling, they wouldn't sleep with the big lummoxes, and the human race would stop dead in its tracks.

It's the equivalent of what happens to parents when they have a baby. That squishy parental feeling that keeps them from drowning the thing at birth.

Geez, I can't believe I'm on this thread. It wasn't what the subject line made me expect, and here I am posting, too. I'm starting to want a boyfriend BAD. (Sorry for the bad grammar.) I wonder if I'll still get the same feelings if I ever do meet a cool guy? Or will I just be focused on the nads? That's not how I want to live...

(K8, you really rock my boat.)

Hormones definitely affect your response to sexual stimuli. I remember the first time I was watching James Spader as Alan Shore on Boston Legal make a particularly impassioned closing argument and I got all fluttery and gooey in my tummy and I was like, OMG! he's totally turning me on! Some of the guys here do that to me too lol

Quote from: Arch on November 23, 2009, 01:16:51 AM... if women didn't get that mushy internal feeling, they wouldn't sleep with the big lummoxes ....That squishy parental feeling that keeps them from drowning the thing at birth.

ROFLMAO! thanks Arch for a really good laugh to start the day! There is some truth to what you say! 

All of a sudden there were a few instances where my brain was like, "Oh btw... Dicks! LOL!"

And it kinda messed with me for a while, hahahaha...

But I've really learned that even though I call myself "Pansexual", its because I'm really attracted to a girl because of how they think... Yet I find it more and more appealing in my head... ANd really the only legitimate feeling thing to be penetrated. So... I'm not gay, straight, pan.... Its hard to explain cause I DO have specific tastes. People with a more mental gender need to be a freaking great exception (maybe an FtM or that singer from the PIllows).... But the point is that now my brain really really likes that whole phallic "Fill you up to be complete" BS, but I still connect with girls better or at least people who have experienced a full range of feelings. They have to be pretty domme too, or at least willing to be usually cause I've always been epic failure as a top my whole life. But now that I think about it, if I really loved and felt comfortable with the person I would top them just for fun...

Its like halloween. I want a BASE to work from that I'm comfortable with. That doesn't mean I'm not opposed to a different adventure sometimes... Its the whole point of deviating. I just need solid ground to bounce off of.

So I started getting these girly feelings like CRAZY about 8 months ago. They got more and more "Callibrated" and ingrained in me, and now body parts that are external FEEL like they're internal. Not to mention my body is attempting to morph itself best it can to turn my boyish parts into what they should be. The whole line on the back thing and whatnot. It looks and FEELS like the outer part of a vagina. I dk why I could know what one FEELS like but my brain sure believes it without me willing it to... So I just accept it now.

So basically... Progesterone gave me that too when I first started it. I'm thinking of cycling eventually with my hormones (Injected), cause that would seem more effective for this puberty and for the experiences I want before I die. I keep getting tastes of them for like... 30 seconds at a time, and wow...

Sometimes I do get tingly. It was more when I shifted dosage or was more healthy. I guess I'm less of a "get mushy in public" person now cause I'm just so tired and sleep deprived and hungry... But when my friend walks into my class and slaps my ass when the teacher isn't looking I do kind of yelp and my brain goes, "O_O" For a split second. Its part that I don't remember that I HAVE an ass to begin with cause I've always been so skinny and I think now though that its part what this thread describes. I like dominant girls, at least sexually, and WHOA does that distract me. My body is like me... It wants to do something thats freaking impossible, and it knows its impossible but its freaking doing it ANYWAY. Like having babies....


Sometimes I feel all vulnerable and freaked out when I walk down the street though and places alone...

And then I remember... "Wait? ... I can't even get pregnant? And I carry art blades?"

These things are both my savior and downfall... I love curling up or cuddling... But then it will backfire and turn on me and I'll be the angsty stereotype hugging the pillow just to fall asleep thinking of the person I love.


So I guess I'm mentally 14 now. D:

Good thing I hate Twilight. That makes me feel a lot more confidenct in my control over this XD !

Hi Kate
Boys will be boys.
I had some guy checking out my boobs, he couldn't take his eyes off me. It made me very strange.
Sarah

Quote from: Arch on November 23, 2009, 01:16:51 AM
(K8, you really rock my boat.)

Well, y'know Arch, when we both get fixed up... (where's that darn flirty-eyebrow icon?)

- Kate

Yeah, I think the hormones light up parts of your brain that were dormant under T.  And vice versa for the guys here.  For example, check out our respective libidos when T is removed or added.  Theres a LOT more to it than just that, it was just an example.

I find I am very intrigued by the *idea* of guys, which I never ever had before.  And when some guy hits on me, I am flattered more than anything else, but that fluttery feeling is there somewhere.  But most men that I find are really not up to my intellectual standards.  (I know, what was I expecting to find in a bar?  Einstein?)  So they are mostly in the FFFF class if you get my drift.

But, oh wow, when I get a chance to touch rock hard abs with manfur on it or a butt with no give I get, uh, positively gooey!  And that thingy in front isn't really on my menu, but I know that is who is driving so I sometimes pay it heed.

I still love doing liplock with girls, thats for sure!  But guys are getting to be *special*.

I guess that makes me bi as far as sexual orientation goes, but I always want to wake up with my partner.  That is who I truly love.

Enjoy the ride, Kate, it's one hell of a roller coaster!

-Sandy(did I really type that?!?!?)

Quote from: K8 on November 23, 2009, 07:38:34 AM
Well, y'know Arch, when we both get fixed up... (where's that darn flirty-eyebrow icon?)

Sigh. You know that if I ever do get fixed up--and I might--I'll just go and waste it on some "lummox." Women like you make we wish I could swing the other way as well.

Every once in a while, I get tired of being gay. And I wonder how that can be. I've always been gay in my head, and I fought so hard to be gay. It defines me so totally. When I came out of the closet last summer, I didn't say to myself, "I'm trans!"; I said, "I'm gay! I'm a gay man!"

I know what it's like, as a person in a female body ruled by female hormones, to get all charged up over a straight man. I still don't know what it's like, in this modified, T-saturated body, to get all charged up over a gay man. Sometimes I wonder if it will happen. 'Cause if it does, he's almost certain not to want a monster like me.

But you know what? I just wish I could find out what it feels like for me, as I am now, to have that attraction, even if just for a few minutes at the grocery checkout.

surely, if we TS are TS its because we have the bit of female brain? then as soon as we start hormones that bit will switch on and give us a typically female puberty? During which we will be as appearance and clothes crazy as the teen girls and get romantic feelings that will confuse us - isn't this the stuff of teen girl magazines?  I actually think that those so-called transsexuals who don't get the second puberty and don't act like a teen girl are not TS and lack the bit of female brain that the researchers find at autopsy.