Hi Steven,
As I have said to others like yourself, you don't have to tell us your "real name". You can modify your post if you like to take that reference out. Your call. That being said, welcome to Susan's place.
Sounds like you've been exploring already and it's good that you read the rules first. You'd be surprised how many people post first and read rules later, many of them adults, so your ahead of the game already.

There is also the Wiki which has lots of useful info and when you're ready for such things there are plenty of links to therapists and doctors etc which you will need as you advance along your journey.
So fix yourself a cup of tea or other realxing beverage, sit down, take your shoes off and set a spell.
Good Journey,
Cassie