I'm a wanna be MtF sort.
I don't take any hormones or blockers.
I have to say that, for many years, the male organism was more prominent.
In recent years, as my male libido has shrunk to almost nothing, like lilacwoman, I often find that showers can be incredibly powerful experiences.
It isn't like the male organism at all.
You need to be relaxed and feel confident. If I thought that someone knew I was there or had anything on my mind, it isn't going to happen.
It starts locally, sort of, and spreads all over. I can't really describe it in physical terms so much as an exhilaration.
With the male orgasm, of course, you reach a point, stop and are exhausted. Perfectly normal.
With this, it isn't that at all.
I'm a little self conscious about explaining this. Firstly because I've never done it before, or even spent much time thinking about it. Secondly because I'm aware that other MtF here are taking hormones, blockers, have transitioned, even post op. Their experiences will probably be different.
I am more than ready to accept that, what I'm experiencing is way off the mark.
