:)I am fairly old,but do not look my age, I have long brown hair eight inches or so below my shoulders,I do take a lot of care of it,it seems to make me feel a lot more feminine.I have always known that I am transexual,and over a number of years have tried different ways to change my body shape,I would start a herbal program,and to give it time to work, would stick to it diligently ie 18mths at least,at the end of that time it would finally sink into my dumb brain,nothing was happening,three times I tried different regimes,all of them ended up the same,most of the changes were imagined,each time this happened I felt completetely devastated,the thought of the time I had wasted, and the fact I would have to stick with whatever program I decided on for another 2 yrs, and again nothing might happen.
many times I tried to change, covering a period of years,finally january this year, after a year on mirifica and breast gels etc etc,and still no change,I ordered hormones on the internet, I spent over a year checking on what hormones I should buy, where from and what effects they would have on me.
I must go now but will add more later, for the first time I can see my body changing and feel the changes.
some time has now passed since i started the hormones,and now the changes are measureable if i use a tape to measure my breasts, under my breasts measures 39 ins over them the measurement is 39.5 and across them 46 ins
