Quote from: phx_rising on January 13, 2010, 10:21:56 PM
I can't seem to allow myself to identify as FtM because I know it's a lie and I just can't. I'm bigendered which seems to confuse the CRAP out of people!! People want me to pick one. They'll either decide for me that I'm FtM and just haven't accepted myself yet (or whatever they believe...I truely don't get it so can't know) or that I'm a confused gender queer girl. *shrugs*

I'm a female bodied person, who likes to pack, just ordered an STP, ISN'T a guy, but has gotten really good at drawing on beards and prefers male clothes. *shrugs*

What is an STP?

QuoteReducing daily intake of T does not reduce the effects, it would still happen, it simply happens slower. Ex. You'd grow facial hair over one year, as opposed to six months.

Are you sure about that?

STP=Pissing Tube

Most of the time I feel neither male or female.  Sometimes I do feel female and I hate feeling that way...sometimes I feel male.  Most of the time is just hovering between the two. 

Right now, I don't know what I want. I could be FTM or I could be an androgyne. Like Jamie-o, I feel sort of like on the grand old gender spectrum I'm 75% male and 25% female. I feel like a feminine guy, and right now I present as 100% female.

I know it isn't working for me, so I'm slowly working on becoming more androgynous looking. But I don't know if that's going to be "enough". I have similar feelings to some of you. Some terms I know I'm NOT right now: woman, girl, man. But I'm comfortable with guy, boy, person. I don't know if I'm going to need hormones or surgery, or if I can be happy presenting as androgynous.

But you know, it's really comforting that other people feel a similar way. The vast majority of the time when I hear the stories of people whose genders don't match their sex, it's straight transsexuals who fit cleanly into a gender binary post-transition. Sometimes it feels like a complete transition, with hormones and SRS, is the only real way to be happy if you have gender dysphoria, since those are the majority stories presented in the media and even online.

It feels the same way about sexual orientation, too. I'm pansexual, but when people ask, I just say bisexual because it's just... easier for people who don't know anything beyond gay/bi/straight, and there are people who look down on pansexuals because they see us as bi people attempting to be mystical or political or something. ARGH LABELS.

brain, just incidentally, while I'm quite sure I identify as male, I'm not comfortable with "man" either, or at least not yet. The word seems to come with a lot of baggage that I don't feel ready to carry. And I know a fair number of cismales who don't tend to refer to themselves as "men" either.

That actually makes a lot of sense, when you talk about the baggage that comes with "man". It's not just a statement about gender.

I guess I've also heard from some trans people that sometimes it isn't necessarily knowing deep down that you're male or female; it's more about knowing that you AREN'T female/male and feeling a sense of unease when you are identified that way.

I'm with the 75% brigade but its just enough maleness to make me feel totally uncomfortable as a female. maybe after transition i'll feel more female but with a male body who knows. For now FTM is the closest i've ever come to feeling at peace

Hey i like the no body idea. That would be great.  I feel kinda invisible anyway

Quote from: Sameth on January 13, 2010, 06:35:41 PM
Honestly, I don't feel I am a boy. Technically, I feel genderless, and that I am a spirit trapped in a body. And the suitable body for a spirit would be as minimalized and genderless as possible, which in my opinion, would be no breasts, no penis, little facial/body/head hair, aka the FtM body. So I've adopted being a FtM because it makes my life easier. I am okay with being seen as a feminine guy, getting male pronouns, etc, everything that has come with transitioning and so I am settling nicely into flamboyant-male life. It's just sometimes I feel like a liar no matter what I tell people. If I had my way, I wouldn't have a body at all, but yay society not accepting alternatives.

So I was just wondering...are there any others like me?

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Quote from: Pica Pica on March 12, 2010, 03:57:05 PM
STP=Pissing Tube

Damn i need one of those because its safer for me going into a male bathroom the way i look these days.. Where can i get one?