Right now, I don't know what I want. I could be FTM or I could be an androgyne. Like Jamie-o, I feel sort of like on the grand old gender spectrum I'm 75% male and 25% female. I feel like a feminine guy, and right now I present as 100% female.
I know it isn't working for me, so I'm slowly working on becoming more androgynous looking. But I don't know if that's going to be "enough". I have similar feelings to some of you. Some terms I know I'm NOT right now: woman, girl, man. But I'm comfortable with guy, boy, person. I don't know if I'm going to need hormones or surgery, or if I can be happy presenting as androgynous.
But you know, it's really comforting that other people feel a similar way. The vast majority of the time when I hear the stories of people whose genders don't match their sex, it's straight transsexuals who fit cleanly into a gender binary post-transition. Sometimes it feels like a complete transition, with hormones and SRS, is the only real way to be happy if you have gender dysphoria, since those are the majority stories presented in the media and even online.
It feels the same way about sexual orientation, too. I'm pansexual, but when people ask, I just say bisexual because it's just... easier for people who don't know anything beyond gay/bi/straight, and there are people who look down on pansexuals because they see us as bi people attempting to be mystical or political or something. ARGH LABELS.
