Ever since I was a small child, I've always had a huge love of music. My first instrument was a set of native-american styled tom toms. In grade school I learned the recorder. When I was about 11, my older brother had taken an interest in learning the guitar and it wasn't long before I followed suit. I've been playing ever since. I guess my skill is decent but I never really took it seriously and there we're periods where i didn't play at all for a long time. I started to get more serious about it around 2002. What followed was a series of 4 songs. I continued to write lyrics and even attempted to write music for them for many years after with little to no success. Finally in May of 2008 during a moment of mass inspiration, a new song was born. It was literally written, arranged and recorded (all by myself) in about four days. It was an amazing feeling. Each new part written influenced a high level of excitement within me. And as time passed on I kept writing more lyrics. Some of those lyrics we're completed while others to this day remain unfinished. Frustration set in and I started to believe that I had written such a good song that everything I wrote after seemed sub-par. I even believed this to be the reason why after a year (and even longer) I had still not been able to complete a song. Of the four original songs, two of them had a deeper message, which, until I had started down this journey, had eluded me for all these years.
One day last fall it suddenly hit me. I finally understood the meanings behind those two songs written nearly eight years earlier. It also occurred to me that the fifth song had a deeper meaning as well. Lately I've been wondering if the real reason I've been unable to write anything more is largely due to those songs all being related to one mass message from my subconscious and now that it is out, I have nothing left significant enough to say. I do believe these songs had a larger affect on me subconsciously then I had first understood and probably started me down the road of acceptance at a very subtle rate. Amazing to think after all these years.
