To socialize.
The exact reason for my being here, is that in July I fell in love, and when trying to express it, I felt no counter-love, no Anteros calling me from another shore. I hate to remain stuck in such misery, so I felt need to socialize more, and forget the whole episode.
I tried straight, heterosexual date, but I feel it to be a such disaster, as I not really am the man, the women are looking for. Then, what I am, who am I..?