I feel like a don't really know for sure what it means to be either a man or a woman. I've found that many of my emotions and thoughts are shared with some of the women I know, yet I've never had an overwhelming desire to dress like a woman or to cut off my male genitalia. Yet, given the opportunity, I think I would dress more feminine (something I was not allowed to do as a child). I was always told, boys don't wear that or boys don't do that. I recall playing with play dishes and a doll house when I was very young - I assume that is rare for little boys, but who knows. I was a first born child in a military family, you can get the idea of the strict environment.
I don't have any attachment to my male genitalia, in fact, I am developing some aversion to it. I don't want to get into the sexual orientation discussion again (don't want to keep getting scolded), but if not for sex, I personally don't have a need for any particular genitalia. I feel like who I am is inside.
My desire to have women parts is not so much just for me, but how I want to relate to men. Without getting graphic outside of the sexuality forum, I want to be cherished by a man and to please and give myself over to him, which I think is a more feminine feeling. My brother told me that he feels somewhat aggressive during sex, and I feel the opposite, though of course it varies.
If I was never going to have sex again, I think I would just prefer to have no genitalia. Yet, just recently after seriously considering the possibility of SRS and talking with you good folks in this forum, I have felt a sense of inner peace and less anxiety.
I suppose the only way to better understand womanhood is to live as a woman for a while, but I don't have the opportunity to do that now - nor the nerves.
Still, asking other women about their womanly feelings has helped me, though I find it is a difficult thing to describe.
