Just kinda wanted to start a thread about this, and welcome you to explain if you have it, or when you get it, or how much it sucks, or rocks.. or whatever.

i would have made this post a question but my situation doesn't really have a question, I just felt weird about the whole thing and wanted to talk to people who have it too.

ok well having a boyfriend, I actually know how a penis feels like now, so I think my phantom penis has gotten worse.  sometimes I will be sitting around and im imagining my penis flaccid against my thigh.. and i dunno if i like the feeling.. i mean its kinda nice but then i realize nothing is there

Quote from: Elijah on August 03, 2010, 06:24:12 PM
Just kinda wanted to start a thread about this, and welcome you to explain if you have it, or when you get it, or how much it sucks, or rocks.. or whatever.

i would have made this post a question but my situation doesn't really have a question, I just felt weird about the whole thing and wanted to talk to people who have it too.

ok well having a boyfriend, I actually know how a penis feels like now, so I think my phantom penis has gotten worse.  sometimes I will be sitting around and im imagining my penis flaccid against my thigh.. and i dunno if i like the feeling.. i mean its kinda nice but then i realize nothing is there

I always do this.

I don't really know either if I like the feeling or not, I think once I realise it's not there I just sorta try get it out of my mind.

Well that wasn't helpful/insightful at all sorry, but it's just a huge coincidence that I've been wondering recently whether anyone else does this.

I also had a phantom penis until my clit grew enough to somehow replace the phantom (although it's still damn small). Oddly, phantom balls I only had in the moments when I was afraid that I might get kicked there or something.

I get this in the "heat of the moment" and then it's like oh wait, nothing there

Freaky, when I first came here I didn't know anyone else got this. Mostly when I'm aroused, most other times it does not bother me. It kind of verifies my identity, but everything that verifies my identity is like a double-edged sword. My depression and angst confirms it.

It is kind of weird, but it's weirder that my parts are wrong.

Yup, I have a phantom dick. I couldn't come or really enjoy sex/masturbation until I really got "in touch" with it, so to speak.  Before I came out as trans I always visualised myself with a dick. It's weird, I can really feel it.

I also have a phantom dick. I can't really feel it when it's flaccid, but coincidentally I could never tell how big it was until just today. I was half asleep and felt own own phantom peen being hard and pressed against my leg. And because I was half asleep I totally forgot it wasn't real and started trying to... you know, touch myself. But it didn't really work.
Pretty weird experience.

Wow. I thought I was the only one who had this.  I usually feel it when I'm aroused. It's one of the reasons why I pack most of the time too, it just feels wrong to not have something there.

morning wood, hated being half asleep and reaching for something and finding nothing.

Been getting that sometimes lately myself. I'll just be sitting there and kind of feel like there's something tucked and pressed against my underwear, or a twitch...

I'll picture it there sometimes when I'm sexually involved, but still trying to avoid that. I don't want to suck the fun out of something I really enjoy :/

Like most who have posted already, yeah I get it mainly when I'm in a sexual situation or being aroused...or needing to take a piss.

It happens a lot when my gf and I are also intimate and her legs are wrapped around me. I loose thought for a while and I feel like I could really just slide it into her but I realize nothing's there. It bothers me sometimes but other times I just go "Meh...oh well".

Hands up and joining the club.

I just feel weird if I don't have my packer in. Which is why I wear it 24/7, even in the shower. Unless my dick ever gets to the size of an official micropenis (3in) then I'm pretty sure I'll always pack. My packer is my 'phantom penis' I guess. Before I used a packer I sorta had moments of the phanton dick.

you guys feeling phantom penis and testicles might explain why MtFs can happily lose penis and testicles without a moment's hesitation - the theory is that our brains being a bit crosswired don't actually recognise our male bits as ours...so logically you guys might have brains that expect there to be male bits and fills in the feelings of having them.
I lost my testicles without thought but a cisguy would drop into deepest depression - and when I had to show my penis to the surgeon and his secretary it was like they are moving a bit of waste skin around...and sex wise it didn't seem connected to the pleasure centre.
Now all we need is some folk in white coats actually show this theory to be fact.

I remember a thread about this a long time ago... back when I first joined... odd for it to be brought up again.

Anyway, yeah, I feel like that sometimes. It kinda sucks sometimes, because you know there's nothing there, but you feel like there is. And then I feel like my pants are too tight and get annoyed. I normally feel like that when I'm just sitting around. (And this right here would be the perfect awkward moment for someone to walk into my room...  )

Somehow I feel left out. I don't have a phantom penis. I do have a good fantasy penis when it comes to sexual situations, but that is something that takes concentration, not something that just happens naturally.

As a secondary statement, I also never feel the need to wear a packer. I use mine perhaps 2 or 3 times a year. It has never mattered to me at all with exceptions of the random days where I actually feel bad about not having a penis.

This thread kind of makes me curious about rather or not these two things are connected. It seems like a lot of you guys who do have the phantom penis also LOVE your packers, lol.

I get it when im aroused or need a piss. It sucks realising it's not there.

This is just great!  I didn't know other people felt this too, in fact using the same term that I have been of "phantom penis".

I only really noticed the phantom penis once I had finally given up living in denial and got to grips with my gender identity.  Now it makes random appearances, flaccid and erect.  And it is not me imagining what it would be like to have a penis, or wishful thinking.  It is just like having a phantom limb; as though there used to be a penis there but it has disappeared and it is the memory of it that just keeps returning.  And it does feel right and somehow comforting to wear a packer.  And I have gone through a few packers until I found one that was closest to the "memory".

Which brings me onto a related but slightly OT subject.  Just like the phantom penis phenomenon, my feelings of gender identity are like memories of having been male.  They are not so much "I should have a male body" but "I used to have a male body" and that, like grieving, I am finding it difficult to adapt to the fact that this is no longer the case.  Does anyone else get this?

Quote from: Papillon on August 05, 2010, 05:45:15 AM
like grieving, I am finding it difficult to adapt to the fact that this is no longer the case.  Does anyone else get this?

Yes, in that it feels like I am grieving to myself as well. Odd, isn't it all?

It is bloody odd.  On the face of it, we are grieving for something we have never had.

But I was discussing this with my SO the other day and it became apparent that I had quite a strong, implicit mental image of the man I "used to be".  It wasn't anything romantic or glamorous, as you might expect if this were an idealised alter ego, just an ordinary bloke.  And this got us talking about past life memories, which was a very, very bizarre realm to start thinking about.

Can it get any more odd?  I susepct so...