-awesome.

I was wandering around the supermarket an hour ago and decided to call my sixteen year old sister back home.  We talked for a while, and eventually, browsing the cereals, I told her that I had started T.  She was surprised, but amazingly chill.  It wasn't a super in-depth conversation, as there were a few families around and I didn't want to get into the nitty gritty details in the middle of the store, but it was still a good talk.  My dad won't call me Elijah, she said, but she has no problem with it.  "It's just a name.  You're just my family and I love you, and you're not any different because of this."  Well, different physically, I corrected, but I agreed with her.

I couldn't quite get her to grasp just how happy I was to hear that she was supportive of me.  That she was, though a little lost and confused by the idea of taking hormones, going to have my back. 

She's the first person in my family to know, and I was sure to tell her that.  She seemed pretty puffed up and proud about the fact, and is comfortable keeping it between us until I've figured out how to tell my parents.  (Which should probably be sooner rather than later, as I'm flying home for Thanksgiving and I'm sure they're bound to notice something.)

Bringing me to a T update!  I'll be having my fourth shot on Tuesday.  So far, other than the increased amount of oil on my skin which has led to a preemptive battle against break outs, I have developed quite the sexual appetite (...which has been left to me, myself, and I to satisfy as best I can, as my girlfriend and I aren't sexually active.  You could say we're waiting until marriage, but it's just due to not having the courage to deal with my own body at the moment.)  I'm also sweatier.  Just walking to the store makes me all toasty warm and pleasantly man-smelly.  I think I stink, but my girlfriend seems to have taken something of a liking to it.  My voice cracks!!  It's embarrassing, but silly, and I absolutely love it.  And, last but certainly not least, I believe I have a few timid hairs on my chin.  This is most exciting, and I was sure to swagger out of the bathroom the other night and show them off to my girl. 

I'm sure there have been other changes, like slight shifts in the distribution of what sparse fat I have, but I'm too giddy to give a detailed description.  I think I'll go do some celebratory vacuuming, because I just love to clean my house that much.

Monster out!

nice one monster sounds like good times all round

Man, I can't tell you how awesome it is to read all of this. It's so cool that your sister is so supportive even though she doesn't know much about it.

And, haha, for some reason, your T update got me super excited! I'm going for my first doc visit the 21st, and I've been feeling anxious and cruddy, but you seriously cheered me up! Who knows why, derp. But whatever, I'm super happy for you~

You go vacuum, boy! Show that house who's boss!

That's good.  I was so anxious before my first doctor's visit too...I was sitting in the waiting room about to throw up my breakfast all over the place.  But the second I walked out that door, a bandaid on my butt, I was absolutely on top of the fricking world.

I'm happy you're happy!