Greetings,

  Anyone else find it hard to understand your male gender peer group when growing up. I never clicked with the male peer group that well compared to females. My feelings about getting laid really wasn't there nor did I have the mindset to compete like a male does for who was stronger. I really could care less what type of engine was in a car or sports for that matter. One of my experiences I had is when I was in grade five is that I was experienced jealously and envy over the most popular girl in my grade. It was never a male peer that I had jealously or envy for. As well to  this day if I'm sitting with a group of male adults I usually eavesdrop to listen to the female conversation, because I find the male conversations boring.

Did anyone else have similar experiences?

-Kayla

Never liked sports, was repulsed by male competition of strength, infatuated with females beauty and manner of being, disliked masculine features and warrior mentality, embraced desires of mothering and cuddling, Did like cars but for their aesthetic design and not for greasy mechanics, never liked male fashion adores fem fashion galore, always love heels :-) (that alone should be a deciding criteria for TG, Do you like heels? Oh yes, I do, then that is it! you are TG, here are your hormones!!!!!!!!!!!!) Finds female group so much more cohesive and familiar, finds sex way overrated and understanding so underrated, lately finds some males extremely attractive 

I love the look of heels always fascinated with them! Where male shoes are flat and boring looking. Just like the clothing males get - no taste there really. I'm more into the gothic or clubbing clothing its just me. People say I have a dark personality its just me, although people put me down for it. I wouldn't be surprised if one day I do a photo shoot of myself in the bathtub covered in fake blood with a knife. I know its been done before, but there is nothing wrong with someone being their self.

age 11 and I was wanting to sit with the girls when they were doing each others hair and makeup.  good way to get a 'queer' label.

Hi Moonspirited!
Also never really fitted in with boys in childhood. It was not really about the subjects and i think that it is a bit stereotypical to say boys love things like cars and sports. Just as there are plenty girls who love those and detest some typical girly things. In general you are absolutely right. Female company is different than male company for many reasons. I guess was just more at ease and comfortable in female company early on without even realizing why. It just happened.

The silly competition and obsessions of some men I will never understand. I am also sure they will never understand some of our obsessions.

I never clicked with males and still don't. I was much more interested in the girls but was excluded by them because I was a boy. Fortunately I liked science and people accepted that as a male thing. It made me an outcast throughout high school (it was really rural) but it avoided the queer label.

At work all the guys ever talk about is sports, hunting, fishing and women, it can be really soul crushing.

I understand the dark personality. There was a period of time in college that professors were calling me Johnny Cash because all I ever wore is black and yes it was a long time ago. The more I accept myself the less dark and more bubbly my personality becomes.

And yes heels are awesome but at 6 foot I really don't need to stand out more.

I'm not a competitive guy in all aspects of my life, but I get what you mean about sports and cars. I like fast cars, but I don't really care about how strong it is or otherwise. Sports? I tried really hard and, while it's fun as a social gathering or event, you won't find me vegging infront of a TV watching football or basketball all evening.

With that said, there are strong masculine aspects of my life that I still value, like sex, being attracted to another woman, etc. However, that doesn't mean that I view my situation as fetishistic. I like being both and the freedom of proper expression it allows me to get away with. I like being pampered and respected as a woman, but I also like gadgets, widgets, building computers, talking about women, etc. I've learned to appreciate how being both fits in my life.

Quote from: Moonspirited on October 28, 2010, 02:06:09 PM

Did anyone else have similar experiences?

-Kayla

Completely. I could have written that about myself.

Thank you for posting it. It's nice to know that others have been through the same thing

Quote from: spacial on October 28, 2010, 05:42:54 PM
Completely. I could have written that about myself.

Thank you for posting it. It's nice to know that others have been through the same thing

You are welcome! I'm glad my experiences are common.

I never really ever fit into that male grouping.  I was a loner through most of middle/high school.  Sports I never got into, but I have been know to watch football.  I do enjoy a good game.  But that is the extent of my sports.

Muscle cars and older cars I like very much.  More for their beauty than speed.

Even when I was working I just feel so out of place with the guys.  I would just drift off to myself or wind up chatting with some of the girls.  And that was way before I even began transition.

I'm the same, never have fit in with the "guys", and what friends I had in school were females. At family gatherings, I always gravitate to the women's conversations; they make more sense to me than talking about football and women. I get offended at the way men talk about women!

i got the same feeling all the time, like when i was in jr.high they seperated guys and girls at lunch and i felt so left out, there were also no gayboys at my school that i knew of so even lless that i fit in with them, the only thing that did happen then was i built a small liking for proffesional baseball. but i dis always see my self sitting with the girls....