Thought I'd write something here.

I've been in the chat about using the name Johanna or sometimes VampireKitten. I have problems with arge amounts of information and these boards aren't optimal for reading when you do. I also have some concentration problems. Just explaining why I prefer chat.

I'm 30 years old sadly. I wish I was younger.  But oh well. I'm MtF transsexual. I've been on hormones for 1 year and 3 months. I'm waiting for my approval for surgery. I've done all counseling needed. Hopefully I'll get surgery next year. i have lived as a woman as long as I've been on hormones.

I was closeted a very long time. When I was 27 years old, I think, I couldn't live like I did anymore. I saw only two options going through transition or suicide. I choose to try the "easy" way. With suicide. I ended up getting my stomach pumped and in a psych ward for a time. After that I got help and I could start my journey.

I have problems with depression and have been in and out from the psych ward. I also have Social phobia and avoidant personality disorder. I'm really glad my visits to the psych wards haven't been negative in my evaluation for surgery etc. Especially since I've been there once against my will.

I try not to show how bad I feel mostly but sometimes it shows anyway sadly. But I'm glad I've gotten this far.

I thought I'd end with a pic of me:


I'm glad to be here. And nice to meet you all. Ask if you want to. I love questions. 

Hi VampireKitten,

Welcome to our little family. Over 4100 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

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But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.

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You are very pretty.  And you will be a member of the class of 2011.

Hugs and Love,
Janet

Thank you very much.

I'll try and read those must read link.  I hope it's ok if I don't read them at once. it's too much text in them after a few lines I see only a blur.

I'm doubtful I'll get to 15 posts in less than 2 years but I'm sure I'll get there in time.

*hugs* and thank you again.

Welcome to susan's, Kitten.

   I think you will  be surprised how many posts you will make. I thoutht the same as you, when I started posting a couple months ago.

   I am glad you have chosen to transition. Thanks for the picture, it's always nice to place the face with the voice. You look good. Don't get me started on "wishing to be younger". I am 17 years your senior.

   I look forward to seeing more of your posts, Hugs, Erocse

Thank you erocse

It took several months in chat and a few years visiting sporadicly before I made my first post so we will see.  But thanks.

And about being younger I get some confidence boosts when people think I'm younger than I am. I had to show id when buying a energy drink last week. I found that hilarious.

*hugs back*

Kitty!
(in case you were wondering, the issue with IRC being down is known, waiting on a fix)

I was wondering. But I found a tv-serie to keep me distracted.  I don't know if it's the abstinence problems from no chat, the tv-series, me being tired, or my meds, but something has made me all giggly tonight.

*nuzzles back*

welcome to the forums! at least now that the chat is down we can all chill out here lol

Ty Lexine Chilling is nice Chilling with yoghurt is nicer. Mmm pineapple, mango and vanilla taste. Mmm.

Hello Kitten,
It good to meet you and I feel I have with the photo and all.
I don't get on chat. But I like the forums.
Far as age I'm only 60 and have been on HRT for just over 10 months.
So you youn'n to me.
Welcome to the forums.
Jillieann

By the way you already have 6 postings so it won't take you long to reach 9 more.

Thank you Jillieann nice to meet you too.  My problems with the forums is my concentration problem, I'm asking my docs for pills next time I them. maybe I'll spend more time here on the forums then.

Ah didn't think of that.

Hope you can this is a fun place to share too.
Usually you get responses quickly.
I'm ADD so i don't stick around if there isn't much happening.
But there are usually a number of running conversation on the forums.
Jillieann

Welcome to the forum VampireKitten 

Thank you Michael

I understand Jillieann, several docs have suggested I might have ADD but no tests etc. There have been some problems here and new docs every three months so they kinda forget me. I know I should tell someone but I'm just not up to it at the moment.

Welcome Kitty!

Thank you JoanneTV nice to meet you.

See what I mean Kitten.
This place is usually hopping and you can pick and choose which conversations you want to get in.
I usually stick with the girls but occasional I'll post in the guy sections.

Jillieann

Yeah. I'm starting to see it.   I guess I should look around a bit more then when I'm up to it. Too tired now. Over 1 am.

Goodnight Kitten.
Was good to get to know you.
Hope to see you around another time.
Oh look you already have 10 postings.

Jillieann