Quote from: CaitJ on December 13, 2010, 11:21:55 PM
I didn't know it. However, I strongly suspected it.
Living as a woman was test that verified for me that the female paradigm fit much better than the male one. If the test had failed, then I would have gone back to my assigned birth gender.
Having a rational approach is important, I think.
This is a good point. In the beginning I knew only that I had always thought I should be a woman and that I had trouble living as a man. Transition was an experiment, to see if living as a woman would suit me better. In the beginning I did only those things I could undo if need-be and return to trying to live as a man.
As the experiment progressed, I found that living as a woman suited me so well that I knew I could never go back. Living as a woman was a real pleasure and for the first time I could just relax and be me, not worrying about how I presented myself. My biggest fear was that I would be forced back to living as a man.
When I had GRS, the effects on my feelings and how I thought were so profound that I was at last certain that I am and have always been a woman, regardless of my birth anatomy.
So it was, to paraphrase the Little Engine That Could: I think I am, I think I can, I am I am I am.

- Kate