Melody, you WILL pull through. I know you will. So will I. Do you know the song "You'll Never Walk Alone"? If not (or even if you do) google it and find a recording you can listen to. There's a real good one done by Jerry and the Pacemakers back in the 60's. Listen to that song. I have found it really healing during hard times, like when I was coming out to my (adult) kids.
I know it's hard. It sucks. And there aren't words to say about it that don't sound trite and lame, but I know you know that I know what you're going through, because I'm going through it too. And despite the stormy weather in which I find myself, I DO choose to believe in the rainbow. It's there, it really is. And with all this "stuff" we have to go through, you can bet it's gonna be a real purty one, too...