Hi my name is Jaymee,

I am transgender mtf, um I live in Nanaimo B.C located n vancouver island.  I will make this fast and short. I have been depressed severly for 16 years, I am definatly anitsocial, i have very few friends in the real world. I spend most of my time in my room on my computer. I hate being male, i dont feel male and am scared to transition because i have two young daughters who dont live with me. I have had a very tough life being severly abused as a child and living on the streets my whole life. Lets just say im severly emotionly and physically  scared. I dont know what to do anymore, i have suicidal thoughts constantly. I realyl need help and i have no idea who to talk to anymore. it seems to me all people care about in the medical field is how much money can they make off you. because of this i have not seeked any sort of proefessional help. I am 42 years old, lonely severly depressed and i need help. I just want to live my life as a woman who i really am, and i dont know what to do. ugh
is there anyone here i can talk to. I would appreciate it. I was very excited finding this site i ddint realize there was so many who thought life myself. omg.

Welcome to Susan's Jaymee. There are plenty of individuals here that share the same fears and stories similar to yours. I can assure you that you have come to the right place. There are over 4,700 members here each willing to lend a hand, a hug, and a smile when you need it most.

Make sure you check out the site terms of service and rules to live by (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html )and don't be shy!

I look forward to reading your posts and getting to know you!

Hugs,

Jackie

Hi Jaymee,

Welcome to our little family. Over 4800 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.

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Hugs and Love,
Janet

Hi,

Thankyou for the welcome

I have read so many articles on your wonderful forum, it's made me feel a bit better. omg ty so much for making such a informative wonderful website.

Hi Jaymee,

Welcome to this place:). I hope you can find lots of support through this site, Susans can be very helpful. There are many people here to talk to and share stories with. Try to find professional help as well, you won't have to do it all on your own.

Hugs,
Sweetie87

Welcome to Susans! There are a LOT of awesome people here to talk to.

Are there any LGBT centers near you? If so, contact them and tell them your story. Perhaps they have resources you could use that might not cost you anything (if you can't afford it).

hugs!

Hi

ty Susan. Um what lgbt centre?

Quote from: Jaymee on January 06, 2011, 06:56:36 PM
Hi

ty Susan. Um what lgbt centre?

I found this via a Google Search.

http://gayvictoria.ca/

This near you?

They also have a Facebook Page that might be useful.

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=46403859779&v=wall

And maybe this?
http://www.transgender.org/transcend/