I'll try to keep this short as possible. And just dive right into it.

Today (2/4/11) marks the 44th day that I've been on my period without stopping. Before this I had an 18 day one in Oct/Nov and a 15 in Sept/Oct.

I started T in March.

The nurse whom gave me T? She said I shouldn't have ANY period. And urged me to go get an ultrasound and whatnot.

So I went to the Oakland Highland hospital, waited 10 hours in the ER (and was up for over 24 hours by then... missing my Japanese class) to be told they couldn't see any cysts, nor external bleeding, and went to just blame the nurse that she doesn't know wtf she's doing, even though they didn't understand much about transgender and T-treatments to begin with.

This is really pushing me to start feeling worse and worse about myself and I've been having more and more sucidial or at least, harmful thoughts, and even to the point where I feel like I should just try to rip out my own uterus and ovaries... these are just feels, but they are they noneless and are not plans. But still. The fact I'm entertaining those thoughts in my head worries me, and just lets me know just how bad this is making me feel.

Through all this I devoloped High Blood Pressure as well... and my anemia and insomnia are both back. I'm feeling anexity again on a high level and just... going completely crazy.

I've wanted a hysto before this, and oh boy I want it so much more now.

If anyone knows where I can get any sort of TG type help... and I really don't have much money at all (I'm barely making rent... much less being able to do much else), I would appreciate it.

I live in Fremont, California... in the Alameda county. San Fran places are out since they only want people who live IN SF... Which really screws me over, because if I can't afford to live here, I surely can't there.

I'm just starting to feel desperate. I'm going to write an essay in why I think me having a hysto and ovar is a good idea and show it to all the medical people I can. :\

I got so much other stresses going on, that this is just something that I could actually do something about, yet can't at the same time.

Hey,

I don't know much about medical issues regarding being TG yet, so I can't really offer advice, but I can't believe that your doctor didn't prescribe something to stop your period.  Bleeding for 44 days cannot be healthy, or good for your anemia.  That happened to me once because of a bad reaction to another medicine, and my doctor had me take like 4 times the dose of birth control that I normally take, and that stopped it within a few days. 

If it were me I'd contact those SF groups and explain how desperate the situation is.  I know they say they don't accept people from the surrounding area, and I could be completely off, but if they're dedicated to helping TG people, then it seems like they'd be willing to make an exception for you.  It couldn't hurt to ask.

I can sympathize with wanting to tear out your uterus and ovaries.  I know it's difficult to take.  Framing everything that I think about in the most positive way possible helps me when I feel like that.  I'm sorry, and I hope things get better for you soon! 

My condolences man, that's f'ed up.

I know when I was on Provera (the pill form of the birth control shot), I bled heavily for 23 days straight, and then stopped taking it, and my doc agreed; bleeding for that long is not healthy, and I was anemic and dizzy.

I'm no doctor, but despite the testosterone, it sounds like you've still got enough estrogen in your system to keep your ovaries and uterus in commission, which is bad.  Even a GP could prescribe an estrogen blocker in your case, Lupron is typically used to stop over-frequent menstrual bleeding, it causes a temporary menopause.  I don't know how to get that cheaply though, they're monthly shots, and even with my health insurance they were going to be costly (I ended up getting some pill that's cheaper).  That would only be a temporary solution though, until you could get a hysterectomy.

I sadly have no clue how to get a hysto paid for or if that's even possible unless your condition were life-threatening, it's hard enough to get a doctor to agree to a hysterectomy on someone under 30 with no children with insurance, even with serious gynecological problems.  I would hope there'd be more FTM friendly gynecologists in the SF area, but I've no idea on financing.   

I hope you find something! 

I don't know where you can get any sort of TG type help, but I'm really sorry your going through such a tough time right now with your feelings and bleeding. I wish I could help you out. I hope there is someone that can help you.  Just don't give up, someone will help you.  Do you have a counselor that can help you?  They have no idea why you've been bleeding for so long?

I was put on the pill when I was twelve because it was regular for me to go 20-30 days of bleeding, with a 4-8 day gap inbetween. Sometimes it was a few days less, sometimes quite a few more. I was told there was nothing wrong with me, and as sucky as it was, that in some cases that kind of bleeding just happens, and is considered 'normal' (read: not a medical problem apart from anemia etc.)

As to how to stop it, I'm afraid I have no idea. If you can stomach it, you can try taking a birth control pill for a couple of days running, and it should stop it in its tracks, but I know that being in the possition your in, taking more female hormones would seem like hell

I hope you can get through it, I'm sure eventually it will stop, but it really sucks you've had to live through it for this long

Do you have any free clinics nearby?  Or can you borrow money from a friend or something to see a doctor to find out what's going on?  Or can you talk to the doctor who prescribed your T about this?