Something happened last night that showed me just how far I have come in the last few months.  After cooking supper last night, I got ready to carry my food (and Diet Coke!) to the living room to eat and watch TV (I know...don't say it).  Since I was wearing a skirt and blouse (no pockets) I didn't have a place to carry my napkin.  Without a thought, I stuffed it in my bra.  It struck me as I was doing it that it was a very natural thing to do (if not very ladylike).

Anybody else find themselves doing things without thinking that are quite different than you would have believed a while back?

.....Larry

Quote from: LaurieO on January 15, 2007, 12:34:35 PM
Something happened last night that showed me just how far I have come in the last few months.  After cooking supper last night, I got ready to carry my food (and Diet Coke!) to the living room to eat and watch TV (I know...don't say it).  Since I was wearing a skirt and blouse (no pockets) I didn't have a place to carry my napkin.  Without a thought, I stuffed it in my bra.  It struck me as I was doing it that it was a very natural thing to do (if not very ladylike).

Anybody else find themselves doing things without thinking that are quite different than you would have believed a while back?

.....Larry

LOL bras do have their uses   The only other thing that I've caught myself doing is to stick things in my hair.

Steph

Hehe, yeah.  I play with my hair all the time and and find myself in feminine stances and doing feminine movements.  It makes me smile at the naturalness of it and I just go on.  I don't recall stuffing too many thing in my bra though. 

Melissa

QuoteWithout a thought, I stuffed it in my bra.

Yes when I am in more of a girl mode, I do small things like check my makeup every hour or so, sit legs more crossed at ankles, speak to my girlfriend in a higher softer  voice.

I havent stuffed my bra though yet and used it to carry anything unusual yet, but thats sorta cute sounding.

QuoteI've caught myself doing is to stick things in my hair.

Funny how breasts and hair can become 5th and 6th appendages

Quote from: LaurieO on January 15, 2007, 12:34:35 PM
Something happened last night that showed me just how far I have come in the last few months.  After cooking supper last night, I got ready to carry my food (and Diet Coke!) to the living room to eat and watch TV (I know...don't say it).  Since I was wearing a skirt and blouse (no pockets) I didn't have a place to carry my napkin.  Without a thought, I stuffed it in my bra.  It struck me as I was doing it that it was a very natural thing to do (if not very ladylike).

Anybody else find themselves doing things without thinking that are quite different than you would have believed a while back?

.....Larry

I think I'm starting to display some feminine mannerisms that I never used to in the past -- that even surprised me when I realized it.  Also, I find myself using some "girly" words in my speech that I almost never used before, in particular "aww", "yay", "cute", and "pretty" (in the sense of attractiveness.)  It depends on how I'm feeling at the time, though.

I realized I was an androgyne less than half a year ago, and these things have started to happen since then -- without trying, most notably -- so we'll see where I go from here.

Quotesome "girly" words in my speech that I almost never used before, in particular "aww", "yay", "cute", and "pretty" (in the sense of attractiveness.)

Now that you mention it CotL, yes I do sort of change my words and expressions. Funny thing is it makes my GF also change her voice and expressions. So that we both are sort of doing baby talk, LoL.

Is this normal or just weird?

Quote from: Melissa on January 15, 2007, 01:26:54 PM
find myself in feminine stances and doing feminine movements.

Yep, same here. I can't vouch for the hair, as I really don't have that much to stick things into. No worries. I'll get it sorted eventually.

Like y'all, I find myself saying and doing things that are not exactly "manly"...especially when holding things in my hand.  Don't know if it is just the longer nails that make it look femme, or if I'm just noticing how my natural movements can be interpreted as feminine as I allow myself to view it that way. 

"Allowing myself" to view it that way..."allowing myself" to wear feminine clothes and makeup...how many other limitations have I imposed on myself because of not "allowing myself"?  Hmmmm.  Does this ring a bell with anyone else?

Steph...like Nathan...I try to stick things in my hair, but sometimes I miss and hit the bald spot...LOL

CotL, it was last July when I finally admitted to myself that I wasn't completely a guy.  The changes in my life since then have happened quickly.  This is easier for me as I live alone, (unless you count the dog), and don't have to worry about what an SO or roommate may think.  The exterior changes (like longer nails, plucking my eyebrows, wearing jewelry) have been a slow process as I don't want to appear completely different overnight...still not where I want to end up, but I'm not in any hurry.   

Ken/Kendra...Yes.   

.....Laurie

I still make a note of male and female behavior depending on use of bodyform an d of words... I want to be less masculine as opposed to more feminine and would like to think that my bodylanguage reflected this

Nigno

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Also, I find myself using some "girly" words in my speech that I almost never used before, in particular "aww", "yay", "cute", and "pretty" (in the sense of attractiveness.) [/qoute]

Eek! Girly words?!  I've been using words like that for a long time!  hehehe......I guess I must have been a little girly.

How cool Laurie!
I think it's these little moments that all add up
sort of like maybe you'll find a 20.00 bill in your bra you shoved there and then forgot about!'
hugs
Ricki

Quote from: LaurieO on January 15, 2007, 12:34:35 PM
.....Without a thought, I stuffed it in my bra.  It struck me as I was doing it that it was a very natural thing to do ....

While we're out and about, I tend to fold cash change from drive thru's in half and stick it in my bra.  My wife wonders how safe it is there.  I assure her, it's safe as can be, and quite handy if either of us needs it...LOL

See Laurie some day Bev is gonna find all this money in her bras...
hehe lol....
ricki

Quote from: Bev on February 11, 2007, 08:06:41 PM

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Also, I find myself using some "girly" words in my speech that I almost never used before, in particular "aww", "yay", "cute", and "pretty" (in the sense of attractiveness.) [/qoute]

Eek! Girly words?!  I've been using words like that for a long time!  hehehe......I guess I must have been a little girly.

Girls seem to use all of those words a lot more than guys do.  I never used to use them.  After I recognized and accepted my androgyny, I found myself using them without ever making a conscious decision to do so.

It's amazing what happens when we quit trying to be something, or quit trying NOT to be something, and just let ourselves be who we are.  Words, expressions, gestures...it seems that these can "instantly" change without our knowledge.  When we accept that it is OK to be manly, or womanly, or both/neither, and quit trying fit into some stereotype we think we are supposed to fit, there is no telling what can come out.

Or maybe, because I have dropped my "I'm a man" facade, that I allow myself to realize just how feminine the same gesture I have used for years really is...

Which came first, the dainty hand gesture, or the realization that it is Ok to make that gesture?  The words "cute and cuddly" coming out of my mouth, or the understanding that part of me would like to use words like that?  I guess what I am wondering...was I acting feminine before and just would not allow myself to see that I was, or did I adopt new words and behaviors after I decided it was OK to do so?  In either case, very little of it was a conscious effort. 

"Required, more pondering is" Laurie said in a quiet Yoda voice...

Quote from: LaurieO on January 26, 2007, 11:50:15 PM
CotL, it was last July when I finally admitted to myself that I wasn't completely a guy.

Wow, I just realized why I've been having such a hard time coming up with an answer to this one. I pretty had pretty much put all the important pieces together 20 years ago or so, and spent all that time from then until almost a year ago fervently denying it and ignoring it. I knew I did all sorts of things "I shouldn't do", but I did them privately. So I guess I'd have to mostly come at the question from the standpoint of is there anything I do "publicly" today that I wouldn't have believed I'd be doing a while back.

Language is a big one for me, too. I speak Mandarin Chinese now. No, seriously, my choice of words and how I put sentences together is different now that I'm not so worried about coming across "like a girl". I do that thing where I fold my hands (something like making a fist but not as curled) and put them on my waist, fingers pointed out.

Quote from: LaurieO on January 26, 2007, 11:50:15 PM
"Allowing myself" to view it that way..."allowing myself" to wear feminine clothes and makeup...how many other limitations have I imposed on myself because of not "allowing myself"?  Hmmmm.  Does this ring a bell with anyone else?

Very much so. "You will not do that because that's what makes you not really a man and not a woman either, and I can't handle that." Funny how not doing that never actually made me feel like a man.