Haha,
Dude don't worry you don't look that girly. And I understand the whole "talking to a computer thing". O_O I only just made my first T journal on youtube and I was so nervous about doing it, I kept forgetting what I was going to talk about, and kept looking around everywhere -_-
I looked like an idiot lol, but I guess you get more comfortable with it over time and doing more videos. *shrugs*
I agree with the neck excercising thing though, you have a tiny neck!! XD
~Zack