i used the mens restroom for the first time in our wal mart friday!
might not seem like much but considering how it happened. i wasn't planning on using a public restroom for who knows how long because they stress me out....well....
use to teehee. i eventually, well, i just suddenly found i had to and couldn't wait til i got home or i would greatly humiliate myself in public....and i go there at least every week. this is where i surprised myself...i just thought "I'm going." or something like that, and walked over through the store, in the mens restroom, didn't pause outside of it, just walked in as if i always had forever and that was that. i couldn't freakin believe it! as painstakingly slow as I've always been with transition, i have to think about it, slowly do something, out of cowardice but with this i just decided and did it. no question or hesitation. so weird. at least now i know i can use public restrooms if i have to in the future without hesitating or freaking out about it. hell no one even saw me in there! lol what the hell was i worried about? getting seen as female and beaten or something but i guess that'd be rare? i don't know.
just saying...yay I'm a big boy!

sorry, Gaaaaawwwd I'm an ass.