Yesterday I suprised myself by building up the courage to go outdoors as a woman in daylight hours!
I was planning on visiting a friend who lives in another town & decided to try & set foot outside the house as a woman, I was ready to leave at 11am but seemed to find loads of things to do around my flat to put it off (pick up a piece of fluff on the floor, straighten the pillows on my bed, that sort of thing
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After an hour of this I decided that if I didn't go for it then i'd chicken out so I went for it, I was wearing my makeup which stops my five o'clock shadow being visible from a distance but when someone gets close enough they would notice (or so I thought)
It took me an hour to walk to the train due to the fact that I wore my knee high boots & they pinch across the toes a bit but to my delight I had 3 cars honk their horns at me, my friend thinks it's because i've got a pair of legs that many women would kill for.
When I reached the train station I found to my horror that it was packed!! My nerve left me & I got a severe case of nerves so I sat outside & had a cigarette until the shaking stopped, as I sat on the platform one woman rudely stared at me so I simply returned the stare until she averted her eyes.
When I got off the train my feet were hurting so badly I decided to get a taxi, I used my polite phone voice that has had me mistaken for a woman in the past & the driver said I could get in the front instead of the back, he then spent more time looking at my legs than the road
When we reached my friends house I said thank you & forgot to use my phone voice, the look on his face was priceless & it was only then that it dawned on me that he hadn't realised that I wasn't a woman (yet).
On the return journey I recieved a few looks but ignored them all & I had another car honk it's horn at me as I walked to the station.
My journeying took 1 1/2hrs walking, 1hr on the train & 2 taxi rides, in all that time all I recieved was one very rude prolonged stare & no more than 10 funny looks, so considering the amount of people who saw me I don't think I did too badly
The lessons I learned today were:
1: I can (just) pass as a woman
2: Some people are rude beyond belief but they are a tiny minority
3: The scariest thing about going out as a woman is what I imagine & not the way people react.
4: This is the most important lesson, never wear shoes/boots if they pinch slightly as you'll be in agony by the end of the day, i've got blisters on 4 toes & can barely put a pair of socks on right now.
If anyone else is thinking of taking this step then please don't let the fear get the better of you, understandably some people may not pass as well as I did but it's a very rewarding experience & can build your confidence tenfold.
Also, wear headphones so people don't try to talk to you & if any comments are made you probably won't hear them, it worked for me
