My mom asked me something like this long ago when I had first come out to her, she had asked me that if it were possible, and there were a way to change it so that you feel comfortable as a guy, in such as way that no thoughts at all were of wanting to be female, completely masculine, would you?
No. Never. I never was to begin with, that's what I was starting to understand about myself, that inside I wasn't a guy, that's why I was fighting so hard to get out, and that's why I continue to struggle to be the gender that I'm supposed to be on the outside as well as inside, female. And one of those necessary steps for me to ever feel comfortable with my external being is to get sex reassignment surgery someday, otherwise there'll always be some bit of misery there. Hormones can only do so much, still got the wrong parts and that's not an easy thing to live with. Besides, what if I took the other option, making so that my mind thinks its male, what kind of person would I be? Because of what would be involved, which could not be just solely chemical changes but perhaps brain structure as well, I could turn out to be a real jerk. I am who I am, I like who I am (most of the time), and what the female hormones do for me is allow the best part of me to shine through.