I want to ask something that I can't help but feel will get taken as insane or retarded...but it's something that's been on my mind, and feels important to ask. That and we have a 'serious business!' policy that's a little more unwritten with the people supporting my decision...So...well, here goes.
I've been dealing with a 'phantom sensation' effect wherein I feel like a more feminine body overlaps mine, and that I can 'feel' its presence vaguely...I figured it is a mental construct of how I feel what my body's supposed to be. ---So....when I started noticing a tightness on the chest, like as if something was pressuring my skin, I thought it was just me fantasizing who I should be. So it hasn't really been a big deal. ---Well, another factor then comes in, though. Overtime I've gotten a little overweight, (To 155-160) and lo and behold, naturally the body's going to find it fine to put a little of the fat deposits on the chest. Certainly that can't mean anything: My weight will drop some (It's about 148 now) and it'll just go away. (as much as I'd rather it not, it probably shouldn't be womanly until...you know, I make it be womanly) So now I see it's a little bony between chest/stomach. Probably UNDERWEIGHT but I don't think I'm bad off.
Of course, like this, man body being manly likes to keep fat on the belly...but something I noticed is confusing me. There's still some fat left in the chest. I kind of got worried about it and prodded and groped, but they seem to be entirely mundane. They're not big by any real standard, so I guess that's not TOO off. But...I'm...kind of wondering...
Is having fat stay in the chest normal for a guy? o.o; I can't help but wonder, if it's possible that a strong enough identification of the other gender can cause the body to deal with weight weirdly, and I was wondering if other people experienced and looked into this.
