Ok so for the most part like everyone here i cant stand the way i look. (im pre-t) But ive noticed that it tends to slide into the bedroom too for me. I hate the lights and i have to ware a shirt and i hate not having the skin to skin contact. but im just not that comfortable with the way i look to try and pull it off with out having this disconet feeling with my gf.

Over the last say 3-4 months ive( i live with only my gf) tried getting used to the small stuff. like walking from my shower to the bedroom without worrying if im compleatly covered, and letting my gf put ice hot on my back, changing freely in front of her and not looking away or trying to hide myself in the process. Ive noticed that i tend to make the experiances of running to the bedroom and puting ice hot on go as fast as possible.

so lately ive been trying to slow down and try to become just a little bit more comfortable in that My gf has seen me nude, she knows whats there and whats not so I need to be more comfortable with my self so im not so stuck in my head all the time. And get this... its starting to work, I can leave the bathroom door open when i get ready for my shower, and im letting her put ice hot on me , becouse for a while i wouldnt let her touch me.

I dont know if you guys have to go through anything simular but i just thought it was intresting that i am trying to almost retrain my brain into being just a little bit more comfortable. Now im still pretty coverd but i feel more at ease when she touchs my back or raps her arms around me.

let me know if you guy have had to do anything like this or if im just really weird. 

Not really in your situation but I am very shy about my body because I'm very overweight. I'm not comfortable with it and I'm even less comfortable with having a big chest, too. But sometimes you've got to be just like, f- it, we're all adults and we've all seen boy bits and girl bits, it's no big deal.    Hope that helps.

Yeah thanks for the post

It's tough man, I know what you're saying. I've been with my gf for 2 years now and I bind most of the time if we're gonna be intimate. I don't feel comfortable with her seeing me changing. Has nothing to do with her, just can't get over my own insecurities.

I would say just don't 'train' yourself to do anything that doesn't feel right to you. Some guys are very comfortable with their bodies as they transition and some of us just aren't. T definitely helps with these things, though. Good luck man.

It is tough.  Not being on t yet I still get red death every month and don't want anyone to know when it occurs.  I try to hide anything that would show I have it.  I still am not comfortable in having anyone see my chest mounds so at least a tight sports bra all the time when I am around anyone.

Thanks for the support. I cant wait for when I start T. ive been reading Transition by chaz bono, just finnished it. its really good, I watched the documentry on OWN few weeks ago but the book is better it fills in a few more gaps and it reads as more personal then watching the doc.