I often go to the local hotel restaurant one a Saturday night for a steak meal. I have never had any problems, in fact total acceptance.

Tonight I got there about 7pm. Massive queue, I was told by one of my waitress friends, they had 165 covers. I was in the queue not knowing what to do. Dave the manager came up and said I know I always promised you a table but I have eight tables waiting. I have one special table but you will need to share. OK says I. 

So I ended up with a young couple, trying to get pregnant and an elderly man whose wife is dying and in an Nursing home. I could relate.

What a night.
They had never met a Cindy before. I had never met them.

Sue and I just hit it off, her husband Brian  was just a pool of laughs and a gorgeous in love fool idiot, I sat with Sue in the loo and we talked about guys and commitment and fear and babies and stuff. We even got the  'Why were you in the loo for so long stare'. Most of female life is discussed in the loo.
Tony the elderly guy just poured it all out, all great, he enjoyed talking and meeting us all.  He was totally OK with me.

What a night.

I'm exhausted in  a nice way.

Bed calls wish someone was in it


Cindy

I was graet 

That is just awesome, thanks for sharing.

Jennifer

Thats great. sounds like you have a well deserved night of fun (smile)

That's awesome.

glad it went well

Hi jesse how are you sis?
Cindy

doing ok the combination of all my meds and smoking still is making me sick alot but whatever im still transitioning even if i feel like crap im so glad ur doing well hun and getting out as cindy
jessi

And why are you still smoking? HMMMMM

Cindy

I think it was pretty cool you got to share the table with some nice folks...  I really don't like going out to dinner alone... Glad you had a fine evening 

Hi Sis,

What I meant to say was that I was grateful for having the privilege of meeting such nice people. I would never suggest I  was great at anything.

What I did not include was that the elderly guys next door neighbours daughter came over to check out what was going on. She was there for a Hens night. I told him that he is going to have some interesting conversations.

It was nice though to confirm that people are accepting, friendly and like to enjoy themselves in a nice way. We had great food, some wine and lots of laughs.

Cindy

heather rose so nice to see you again sis thought that your truck stole you away for good you still driving oh sorry cindy for this detour
jessi

All detours in my threads are totally acceptable

Remember I am Cindy, and Heather you are great.

Hugs my sisters

Cindy

well no longer cop avitar changed cindy can explain that crap if she wants id rather crawl under a table then admit it again current avatar is out my petes window in wyoming running the route to utah yep hit rock bottom and took up truck driving then sunk lower when i realized that job would make me slit my wrists and now im trully at the bottom i work part time at sams club when a cop crashs its so not pretty
jessi

Nothing to explain or anything that needs explanation. ->-bleeped-<- happens.

We try very hard to live.  I'd probably get agreement from you two girls that life isn't easy. And if we had a choice it would not have been this. But this is what we have. So we do what we do.
Jesse, I'll remind you of your promise to me. You will not suicide without my permission. I told you I would never give it.
So it is always time to move forward.

Hugs my Sisters. I think you know I love you deeply and I'm always here for you no matter how bad the times

Cindy

cindy i will not suicide i am just tired moody and tired of being trans as we all r i am sure i am struggling to get my head around this and quite frankly if i croak from natural causes ie pulminary embolism because i couldnt even accomplish quiting smoking well then throw a wake drink be marry for at least it will finally be solved i love the people on this site i respect you heather and janet and a couple others more then anybody i have ever known
hugs cindy and now i will go to bed my teath have quit hurting cindy i will email more often maybe if i bounce stuff off of you i can cope better without subjecting myself to open forum
hugs ladies
jessi

Night Night