Well, basically i am a ftm transexual that likes to crossdress (into female clothes)

Though i plan to have full srs, and have horrible dysphoria and wish i could have the surgery tomorrow. I don't enjoy anything about having a female body right now. But for some reason..i like to crossdress sometimes. it's weird, almost like a different mindset I get into sometimes when feeling down. I will crossdress into some of my old female clothes i have (some sexy/cute stuff) like heels, skirt or short shorts, lingerie, nylons, and makeup.

i mean, i don't really know what i'm asking. but i just feel like it seems weird, especially since i'm a transguy, and one that can't stand my female 'parts'. does this mean anything? is any other ftm like this? am i just crazy? lol

also, i guess this just sorta came up since i randomly asked my mate if he likes crossdressing (i.e. seeing me crossdress, not him crossdressing). i know i'd brought it up before but forgot what his answer was or if i'd even gotten one. I really only wanted to ask so i know if he likes it or not, so if he didn't, then i wouldn't bring it up with him, and if he did, maybe he'd want some pictures or something. He seems kind of irritated, or atleast confused, saying i already am crossdressing (since i'm ftm, and wear guy's clothes normally). and don't get it wrong, he's totally on board that i am trans and everything else. I think it was more just the whole gender thing that can get confusing if you don't think about it just the right way. so i just wanted an answer, and told him that if it's easier, pretend i'm post-op and totally how i want to be and i crossdress into female clothes. after that, i don't really think i even got a straight answer still. he seemed kind of uneasy, and was saying how he didn't want someone else being attracted to me or something. but i told him it's not like i crossdress and go out, it's just private in my own room once in a while. so basically i still didn't get a straight answer, so not sure if he just doesn't like it and doesn't want to tell me, or if he's just preoccupied with all this other stuff related to it so can't give a straight answer. i think i just won't bring it up anymore until after srs or we are living together.

anyways, that's sort of just a side story, as i'm mainly wondering about myself and crossdressing.
also, i almost feel guilty when cd'ing, so i think of just go into a different state of mind and try to enjoy it. for some reason, and it sounds weird, but i feel more like a guy when i crossdress into female clothes.

any input? 

My input is this: just because we're burdened with the idea that "there are some clothes that are just for women, and some that are just for men" doesn't mean it's anything more than culturally imposed bolox. So the bottom line is, whatever you feel your gender to be, that's normal for you; and whatever you choose to wear at different times, that's also normal for you. No need to fret over whether that makes you a "good" or "bad" anything, it just makes you a happy you when you do the things you like to do for you. Enjoy yourself, and enjoy your self.

Why shouldn't be a FtM crossdresser? There is lot males which are crossdressers.
When I was "small boy" I thought I'm crossdresser, but when I talk with CDs, they look at me as I'm mad if I want female body (with breasts, hips and not have "snake"), they want male bodies and wear padded bra and female clothes just for pleasure and fun.
You just can have just wrong body.

Wear whats approperate for the moment an have fun doing so ............  :-*ellen

I love your post. It's something I've never heard before, but makes sense. I think if this forum stands for anything it's to find ways to fulfill yourself in ways not easily understood by society. We are all different and I think that's a good thing.

As a g-male who wears feminine clothes myself, I know there are certain unique pleasures to be had from "dolling up" whether you're a male, a female or any type of transgendered person. And aside from that, I think there can be a tendency to have certain backtrack desires. I recall when I first grew my hair long-- and I mean elbow-length-- I suddenly realized that women with very short hair looked more appealing to me. And eventually I desired and got a shorter style myself (a "wedge" cut-- this was the early '90s).

I think there's a bit of a "grass is always greener" thing that can go on in the back of minds. There is no stone tablet that says you have to be into only one gender role 24/7, though.

While it may not be the same, I sometimes find it fun to cosplay and crossdress, and I'm also FTM. My friend is the same way with his France cosplay, sometimes he'll "doll up" for a rave at a con. And I also once cosplayed a young boy who was disguised as a girl. It felt amusing to me to wear the dress, but I still only feel comfortable cosplaying as a male. While I'm not comfortable wearing female clothing outside of conventions, I find I'm perfectly comfortable doing so in-character, somewhat for the humorous effect.

Now this post is right up my alley and down my street!

One of the items on my bucket list, is one that I can't imagine that I share with anyone and seems to be uniquely me. I want to have a totally femme glamour makeover, hair, make up, nails, etc, and then do some centrefold style shots whilst wearing a garter belt, stockings, high heels, and ... wait for it .. men's underwear as in tighty-whities and a jockstrap. After that, while stil made up, I want to have my picture taken whilst wearing a tuxedo, kinda Marlene Deitrich style. I just have this thing about mixing up the genders that fascinates me

I have often said that if I went for (MTF) srs that I'd continue to CD, albeit the other direction.

Its weird, but then so am I, and that is one of my most endearing charms. It is odd, if not disconcerting, though, feeling like I'm the only person in the world who has these feelings

Oh -- BTW - -I wrote a fiction story along these lines. Details upon request

Huggles

Toni-Lynn

I am so glad you posted this! you are definitely not alone.

-fellow ftm crossdresser

I like to wear tees, jeans, and men's walking shoes. All the shoes for women don't fit our lifestyle in the country because they are usually white.  Does that count?

Seriously. I do. Most of the time. I didn't go through all that hell for the clothes, baby. I only get dressed up nice when I perform or attend a funeral.

Hi
Just wanted to say that I am a FTM (who plans to say "was" after surgery) but I am a crossdresser. I dress-up for fun, for parties or just because its pretty. Heels make you look taller- why arn't all guys into them

I'm completely disphoric about my body and it is hard for people to understand whats going through your mind when you cross-dress as a woman, but regardless if it makes you happy make nothing of it.

Google: Adrian Dalton.

P.S: I long to be a dragqueen one day!

This is Just sad for mtf's. Real women can "cross-dress" every day by technicality and no-one blinks an eye or says a word but the minute a Real man gets the courage, guts, bravery whatever to "cross-dress" omg we have a full out catrastrophy on our hands. That just seems so wrong!