Give mommy these lottery numbers to play! 

Live your life, sweetie.  You won't die at the hands of your parents, I promise.   Please don't go down that dark hole, don't even look inside.  You may never escape.

Above all else, trust your intuition because your subconscious knows best.  When it talks, you best listen up.
Adults aren't as smart as you think.
Anybody that has it all figured out, doesn't.  Don't listen to a thing they say.
A person that makes you smile is precious.  A person that makes you cry is poison.  Treat both accordingly.
You will never regret being kind, patient, or authentic.
You will be known by whom you pretended to be, so if you must pretend to be somebody-- make sure it's someone you'd be proud of.
It's in people's nature to overreach and over-correct.  Use that knowledge to your advantage.
Every word spent in making a point takes you further from truth.  Beware of long-winded philosophers.
The faster you go, the less you will get out of life.
When you feel happy, make sure to notice.
Always let peace be your compass.

Oh, and stay the **** out of Utah!

Oh, and stay the **** out of Utah!

Always good advice.

why, whats up with utah?

It's like Iran, a theocracy in the middle of a desert, but with Mormons.

LOL that is perfect!

Kia Ora,


You "did" the right thing-so don't change anything !

Metta Zenda

Now that I think about it, there is something I would tell myself:

"If you ask the hard questions, you should be prepared for the fact that you will hate the answers."

Huge part of becoming an adult is learning to walk away from asking questions you really don't want to know the answer to.

I'd tell myself

what I am, so that I can find resources sooner.
to stick to my guns whenever mom shouts me down to change my mind.
to be more open about how I really feel, that I don't have to hide myself all the time.
to not give in and get my hair cut just to make other people happy.
to take home-ec and the other classes I want to, instead of weight lifting to try and fit in.

Honestly, my life has turned out pretty good.  I just wish I could have transitioned about 10 years ago - I have no need to be rich, just happy and well enough off to live comfortably.

If I could I'd also give my mom a huge talking-to.  If she had been supportive at all, I probably could have started transitioning in high school.

Little self, listen up:  You have a serious non-curable birth defect that is almost fully treatable. You sort of know this. It is now the late 1940s and early 1950s and almost no one knows about it or what to do for you. But there is a way; here is a concise report and treatment plan, and a list of the people that do know what to do and where to find them. A lot of them are not ready for you yet, but some are. Keep this information safe, tell NO one, and when you are able, go to these knowlegable and caring people. Get the only treatment that will do you any good. Again, right now, no one here knows the first thing about it. There is not one person in your life that can help you - except you. Remember - you are not sick .... you do not have a disease .... what you have is called transsexualism. It is called a lot of other things, some most unflattering and inaccurate.

Again, tell no one. It is entirely up to you. Make plans and take action for you as soon as you can.
YOU WILL NOT EVER BE HAPPY UNTIL YOU DO THIS! The future you guarantees it. Make me proud!

Susan Kay