Yesterday at work two of my co-workers told me some news. The gay guy that I made friends with at work told them almost three months that I was gay. Lol. The funny things is he did not want anyone to know he was gay and I kept it to myself the whole time he worked there. I'm not gay. He knew that because I told him about me transitioning after he realized that I was becoming a women he stopped talking to me. What I don't understand is why he lied and outed me as gay to me the truth was better the lie. Lol. So everyone knows a lie but something has came out about him. His dad works there after he quit is dad told someone he was gay and it spred everywhere about him. It also come out that he is a pathological liar and has lied about a lot of stuff and it is all coming out. Lol.

The thing is I'm not ashamed of who I am anymore. If you ask me I will tell you the truth. I don't pass but I know I will in the future and the truth can not be hid. I wear just about all womens clothes to work. I see this as a open door for me. It has freed me even more. His lie has furthered my truth and given me more liberty to open up. For that I am thinkful because I was feeling held back.

I wonder if he simply doesn't understand the difference. Which is sad.

I was wondering the samething. I wonder if lying about being gay creatd a world of lies for him or something. I also realized something about myself. There is differnace in being born into a lie and not knowing that it is a lie. One day you realize that it is a lie and you want out of it, but you don't know where to start and while you seeking a way out the lie is streathing itself against you. I realized I was not lying to anyone about who I am, nature was. Not only was it lying to everyone it was lying to me but you know within yourself that something is not right so we search out the truth and make changes to fix it. But there is proble with this only you know. Everyone esle is still seeing the lie as the truth and you become the liar yet you know the truth. Sometimes it does not matter what everyone believes about you, its about you knowing yourself even if it makes you into a liar.