Thanks for the replies guys - got a bit more than what I expected to be honest, its awesome! Of course I know (and knew all along) that the best thing to do is to suck it up and get to it.. Just hard sometimes and guess I was feeling down. I'm still a little weary of how prominent my chesticles will be if I lose my gut... I guess time will tell I spose.. I have done it before, lost the weigh I mean so I know I can - its just a matter of doing instead of thinking/planning/making excuses etc. Typical procrastination, which is how I have come to be posting this now - I'm actually sposed to be writing reports due tomorrow. Sigh, oh well lol!

Think I am one of those people that needs an outside source to push/drive them. To be accountable to someone else - because obviously I am not able to discipline myself to the level I need! Those years in the Navy were good for something lol I was 79kgs back then (down from 110kgs my senior year)! I looked a little sick and drawn, but that could be because I was so unhappy too.. Anyways I digress. The good news is I did some push ups after reading the comments last night (surprised I could still pump out 10!) and I made some small changes today. I got up before work (I start at 0630 so not a mean feat!) and cycled 12kms in under 40mins (I was a little impressed & actually felt good!) around the city and made better (still not the best) choices with regard to food. I still didn't drink enough water.. God I struggle with that - any secrets/tips?? And any tips for a shift worker?? I work 12hr days/arvos/nights on no set routine unfortunately, so I think it is just going to come down to prior planning.

Thanks again guys. Clearly I'm not alone, which makes me feel better and I like the idea of us all helping each other stay on track too - again outside accountability. Fingers crossed I can get up again and do it tomorrow before my arvo shift - still going to have to go early as it will be over 20 degrees when the sun comes up, and that's if it gets below 20 tonight!! If its getting hotter and humid-er now - we're in for a blistering summer season 

Thanks again to everyone - some real pearls for everyone

j.

Jay, I was the opposite. A day or two after I came out to myself for the final time, I felt motivated to start losing weight. For one thing, I knew that some surgeons could give me trouble for being so heavy. I was hoping to time things so that I would have top surgery not long after I lost forty or fifty pounds.

I lost forty and gained ten back (winter, ugh). I started T and gained muscle mass; but my weight stayed the same, so I figure that I was losing more fat. I still wasn't quite where I wanted to be, but I was a lot less embarrassed taking my shirt off for the pre-surgical consultation than I would have been a year earlier!

I don't know what to tell you. If you don't have motivation to do it, and if you can't find the motivation because of your chest, then top surgery has to come first unless you can't find anyone who will do it. You would have to be very overweight before that happened.

But make sure you're being honest with yourself about what you want, why you're not trying to lose the weight now, and whether you will be motivated later (as near as you can tell). If you're thinking that top surgery will impel you to do certain things but it doesn't, you'll be disappointed, frustrated, maybe depressed and angry.

I used to hate drinking water. I found it easier to drink it if it was really cold. After a bit of forcing yourself to drink it, you will start to like it. Maybe splash a little lemonade in there. I have no set routine at work either. I just try to fit it in where I can. At least doing something each day. Even if its just 20 minutes.

i have gained to much fat for my liking im a skinnny chubby guy as in i have no muscle but i have fat. i used to be really skinny and im slowly gaining fat. so i started running but i dont have a treadmill or a gym to go to, so i run at night when its cool out and no ones around. its difficult though because i have a limited window in which i can run and if im asleep i have to wait almost 24 hours to run. also when  no ones home i run stairs up and down as many times as i can.