That's actually a valid observation . . i consume the ENTIRE dilator . . i literally have to put my thumb and index finger inside the canal (or actually inside the inner labia) to apply force and hold on to the thing. But i have never got it stuck. In fact i'm fairly adept to popping the dilator out by simply coughing - don't know why that works so well - lol.
Before the FIRST surgery i told the surgeon that my #1 concern/goal was depth. I even paid like $1,200 for a skin graft if it were needed. I knew i would never see the $1,200 again if i needed or not. I just figured he's do a skin graft regardless of utility. Sure enough the doctor did do a skin graft (the scars are completely masked by the labia majora). But to my utter shock and disappointment he told me that he was only able to achieve 5". Even in my morphine mind i knew that it was 5" using his measurements and it would probably end up being like 4" or less in reality. He said that the problem was urethral scaring (ironically he told another girl the same thing - she got 3 freakin' inches - but she's a lesbian). Anyway i was beyond depressed about the initial depth. Then when he told me that he would have to remove the original skin graft and perform the colon segment i saw an opportunity for more depth. I was pretty upset at this point (and also the fact that i had to shell out $14,000 more). I demanded at least 7 inches. He said that he couldn't guarantee that and depth was dictated by the amount of space between the bladder and rectum. I argued with him and he actually pulled out Grey's Anatomy to show me. I basically told him to make it work. Anyway, some how he made it work. But let me tell you i earned it. I wanted depth and i got insane depth. As far as width goes i would say that i'm average or maybe sub-average. I easily accommodate his #4 but to this day i still have to start with #2. My friend who went to Brassard was dilating with just #4 (i think) by her 6th month. I'm not complaining though. Oh, and i also produce zero natural lubrication . . and i'm glad. I was terrified of having leakage due to the sigmoid colon. I am dryer than any transwoman i know and there is zero odor. I am completely repulsed by strong odors and i have no odor. I don't even have the feminine one everyone describes on here. Actually, (this is kinda gross) but every 5-6 weeks when i douche a huge glob of uck will fall out and it smells utterly repulsive - like rotten gefilta fish . . i think is a combo of dried lubricant and some sloughing . . but who knows. I actually took a picture of it last time - but i'll spare you all.
