Hello Chrissy,
Welcome to your new home. I know exactly where you are coming from. I'm really sorry the abuse had to happen to you. Once broken, it can't be fixed. But you are in safe hands here. As well as your wife, she sounds like a real keeper. Have a look around, there is tons of good news here, and real genuine people. Ask whatever you feel, you are safe and respected. hope you stay a long time, we want to celebrate the good, the bad and the ugly with you. It's what makes you.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa luv
Catherine