Quote from: MyAlias on December 29, 2011, 09:34:39 PM
I have always liked women. But since I have come out I seem to be becoming more and more attrated to men? Will I stop liking women? Why the change. I have never found men attractive till now! 
From a clinical point of view, I think it is a multiple of factors.
Relating from my own experience, I never found men as exciting as women. From a physical aspect I could appreciate a muscular, well built man, like the image of DaVinci's "David", but I never felt any attraction to them. Women's soft curves and tender skin always seemed magical to me.
Now...
I still consider myself lesbian and I am in a committed lesbian relationship, and I still find women alluring.
However, over the course of my transition and my time on HRT, I have found the male form to be
interesting.
Very interesting. The hard body and body hair that I found so disgusting on me, I find very sensual on men.
I have had intercourse with men and while the experiences were fun, did not live up to my expectations. I won't go into the details, because they would be too salacious for this forum. But think
wam-bam-thank-you-mam...
But still the
idea of men can still make my toes curl.
I personally think that as the cross hormone therapy changes our bodies, it also changes our brains. It opens pathways within our most powerful sexual organ, the brain. And, as I contend and more documentation shows, we have basically female brains to one extent or another, we become more hetero-normative.
Also from a social integration standpoint, as we transition to our proper place in society we allow ourselves the freedom to look at men in a new light. When previously we may have been so closeted as to deny any thoughts of having sexual relations with men.
I personally think it is primarily a primordial sexual urge driven by our newly re-wired brains. Because when I try to rationally imagine having a true on-going relationship with a man as a partner and husband, it all falls apart. Realistically, no man would really want a woman like me. Pushing 60, sterile, a family of my own, and oh by the way, I was born with a outdoor plumbing. If he didn't have a problem with it, someone he knew would have a problem with it. Either his family, or his friends, or whatever. And that usually puts an end to it.
See Calperia Addams three steps to dating a man. It's true. There is no fourth date.
Bottom line is, accept and go on. This is who we are. And the one thing we have learned through this process is to allow ourselves to sit back and enjoy the ride.
-Sandy
