Hi.

I've been thinking about gender all year.    It started when I was talking to somebody on IRC and realized that he was wrong about my sex.  I didn't tell him he was wrong... I just hinted at it enough to confuse him.  I realized that I didn't want him to know my sex.  I didn't know why, but I really liked being ambiguous.  I wondered if I could pull it off in real life, so I started looking up info on androgyny online.

I stumbled across information about non-binary genders, and everything started making sense.  I've never felt fully male or fully female, and it was wonderful to find out I don't have to choose one or the other.  I realized that the reason I was so happy about keeping my physical sex secret is because I'm tired of people identifying me by it.

So..  I'm pretty sure my gender is somewhere in the androgyne range.  And I don't want to look androgynous to confuse people, I want to look androgynous because that's actually how I feel inside (my genitals are fine the way they are, though.. I just want to look androgynous with my clothes on).

This is a very new realization for me and I'm still getting used to it.  I haven't even looked into what pronouns I might like.  I guess I'll accept anything gender neutral.

I'm not going to mention my physical sex quite yet.  If I get involved in a discussion about how to look more androgynous, maybe I'll end up revealing it then, but for now, it's not important.  I know that you of all people aren't going to identify me by the sex of my body, but still, being ambiguous is such a refreshing change that I want to stay that way for now. 

Hi Bluesloth, welcome to Susans! We won't try to guess, I promise. I wonder if it means anything that you didn't choose Pinksloth though. Anyway, see you around the site, hugs, Devlyn

Hi

Jennifer

Quote from: Devlyn on January 08, 2012, 07:21:15 AMI wonder if it means anything that you didn't choose Pinksloth though. Anyway, see you around the site, hugs, Devlyn

*hug*

Hehe, did I choose Blue because I have a male body, or because I'm trying to compensate for a female body?    Unfortunately the reality is it had more to do with mood...  but I've left that history behind and it's just a name now

It's an exhilarating feeling isn't it? To find something that chimes so well with half-thought thoughts. Hoping you have many more epiphanies and feel better for it.

Hi Bluesloth welcome!

I've realized that it's going to be awkward and difficult to talk about things while being careful not to reveal my sex.  Since thinking about my gender is still a new and confusing thing for me, I don't need any extra awkwardness and difficulty..  so...  my body is male.

I used to be happy that nobody here knew that.  Now I'm really happy that, as far as I know, nobody cares

Hi BlueSloth,it's nice to meet you.Hugs,Rachael.

Hi and welcome BlueSloth