I have a problem where I make too many posts... here's another.

I don't know what happened after having my hysterectomy but I feel like ->-bleeped-<-ing different person! By that I mean, being open and talkative, and all that ->-bleeped-<- has been so much easier since the operation.

I mean I've never really had just a laid back conversation about being trans and surgery before but today my mom and I just sat down, not sure how we got into the conversation but next thing you know I'm telling her things I never imagined I would. I actually managed to ask if she'd help pay for surgery, I don't know if she ever would because of my dad, but I can't believe I had the guts to ask. I am going to talk about it more with her, my 21st birthday is coming up, I wonder how generous one mother could be? Though I'd pay her back every cent, I plan to work on a cruise ship after healing from my second surgery.

It's like I doesn't don't feel so shy anymore. Like I'm closer to being myself, and it probably helps that I've been on T a year and a half now. But for the first time I just feel so good. I know I still need top surgery and I want it more than ever right now, I want it more every freaking day, but I have a feeling that it is going to only make me a better person. I feel so free. I don't feel as insecure and I don't hold back.

I've felt different ever since the operation, like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders! My mom has a four thousand her work is giving her for vacation this year, if I'm lucky, my mom will not care what my dad says and do this for me. She told my dad it was none of his business when I was getting the hysterectomy which he thought was a sex change at first, but it'd cause of all the pain, and I don't want kids. So whatever, take it out.

I don't know, I just needed to share that. This surgery has opened my eyes to a whole new world. I don't know how, but it did and I have never been ->-bleeped-<-ing happier!

Also a little more news, my mom and I were talking about sexuality today, despite spending my entire life outwardly crushing on guys, she assumed when I came out as trans that I would be straight. I laughed at her assumption. I knew she thought that for the last three years and I've been having fun watching her think it, but clearing it up today was good. I told her the fact that I'm into guys might be why I wasn't seriously only into boys stuff when I was a kid. I was into freaking everything, except make up... I really did dislike that.

Look at that, I can finally say, it gets better, and I ->-bleeped-<-ing mean it.

^I was so excited I didn't even check all the errors I made in my post. Today has been good, and I think this might be what helps me become closer than ever towards my mum.

I love the thought of travelling, it's perfect for me. I will probably only start on short term if I get the job, which should be easy because there are LOTS of opportunities for it. Then I plan to travel Europe on a Visa, do some labour so I can get by and see travel to different countries. Eventually visiting all continents, I want to see the world!

Also my mom is 100% supportive of this, the travelling thing. She's the one who gave me the Cruise Ship idea. I'm so proud about how far she's come.

Congrats JaykeV like Logan Erik said it's good to hear encouraging stories and it inspires me.  It's interesting how much more open one can be with a hysterectomy.  With an attitude like yours you will have top surgery in no time.