Hey there everyone. I have finally looked into this site! After all I have experienced in my life, I felt that I could share what I've learned along this journey to help others more directly. I was born with a male name and gender marker 30 some years ago. I was raised in my natural gender expression (girl) from as long as I can remember (about 2) by my mother (divorced before I was born) and 2 older sisters. It was explained to me by my sisters that I simply would not have it any other way. I looked like a girl, talked like a girl and everyone thought I was a girl as well, so that was that. I did not know I was legally male until my mother was hospitalized and my sisters (7 and 10) and I were forced to live with my father and his new wife and son. It is important that you know that we were not wanted by them, and only were we taken in because of the threat made by my grandparents to disown my father if he refused. After we arrived and my father left for work my step started showing her beauty was a shallow facade for an ugly, evil, soulless individual. She went through my belongings (2 trashbags) and all my dolls, dresses, and anything else typically for "girls" was confiscated. I was held down and had my dress (that I was wearing at the time of my arrival physically removed (obviously against my will, and with my two older sister attempting to pull my step mother off crying and screaming for her to "stop, you're hurting her!"). As bad as that was the next part was the worst, while still pinning me to the kitchen floor, she cut off my beautiful long hair and said "that's better...I dont care what your crazy mother let you do, there will be no sissy boys allowed in my house!" That was how my first gender transition went...and the beginning of a long painful journey back to my now legally recognized female gender identity.
