I really liked the comments Arch made as in Baby steps !  hey dear , I bet every one of us here on this board has experienced the VERY SAME thing . I know I did years ago. Friend of mine spent all day re doing my hair , I hate wigs. I got to a lesbian bar and then , I went cold . Couldn't get the nerve to go in . Months later , I did . I felt so alone inside for not coming out sooner . I'm Full Time now . I went for therapy and discovered I was a transwoman from childhood .............. ellen