Why do I care that I am male? Why do I want to be female so badly? I honestly do not know.
Why is it so hard for me to accept the idea that I can just be a girly man? I had these thoughts after discussing something with a friend. He said that if he were turned into a woman, he wouldn't care. It wouldn't be that big a deal to him. Why am I not so gender blind? Why is it a big deal to me?
*sigh*
I... really, really like it when people call me "she", "her", etc. Even if I'm not physically female. I also desire to be physically female. I don't know why I care though. It seems so irrational.