Hi Again,
When I first signed on to Susan's I told you a little about myself, that I was married for 32Yrs.
until she past from a long illness.... O how I mess her, she was my heart my everything. I told her
about my feeling a few months after we were married., she said that do you thing that I would
leave you., she said I love you to much/ O God do I miss her/ she was the only one I could talk to.
I have two daughters, my youngest I just told her I crossdress, my oldest I honestly don't know
how she wood take it, But Honestly I Sometimes Don.t Care
My youngest and I went to visited her over Easter, I could not wait to be home// before my wife death the
phone would ring all the time now nothing// When you have nobody to talk to it is very depressing,
and can not tell you how much I cry, it is every day and thing get harder and harder//
I have a wonderful Therapist who knows how much I suffer for all these years, living a lie all my life
wanting to live that I should have been.,// What does God have in store for me?
May is when I take my physical, which I hope everything will be fine to start my journey to be the
person I should have been.// I,m happy and nervous at the same time,
I,m sorry about this me o my, but I fell so alone
Thanks so much for listening to me,
Janis