I have it all plan well in my head, but it's going against my family. Heck, they don't even know that I like men. But I want to forge forward and do what I have to do.

I am going to get facial feminization surgery, I have the money now, it took me a yr to save up from my crappy job but it was worth it. This won't make me completely happy, but it would be a first major change to do it.  (as far as surgeries go the face is all I am concern about) I don't plan on being a woman, but a guy.

I can lie all I want about being gay,  about spiro I taken, but I can't lie about my face. I don't want to be afraid to see them, but I have to live my life.

So, your going to pretty you face up and live as a guy...is that what your saying? (Maybe it's because I just woke up and am easily confused).

Personally, I'd recommend going a little slower and feel your way along more, find your space in the world a little more comfortably and less violently and suddenly.

It might be wise to have a conversation with your folk about how your unhappy with your face, the things you want to change (jawline or whatever). You don't even need to use the word 'feminisation' if you know that'll spark problems. Just say you are deeply unhappy with your look and want to change it.

However, changing a face is a big thing, that's your unique stamp on the world and making big differences to it would freak people out.

There is a recently active thread about a poster who jumped right into FFS and now has regrets.

Pica Pica is correct to suggest slowing down a little bit. Perhaps some things like permanently removing facial/body hair wouldbe a more prudent first step.

However, the most important question you should ask youself is what you see as your ideal end product.