Quote from: Beth Andrea on July 05, 2012, 07:29:50 PM
I am so glad you're still here, Elijah...*hugs*

Something for others to remember (and maybe use) if they ever come across someone who is thinking of taking their life...

QuoteI guess if I were to tell anyone who is suicidal, well, once you actually get close to it, like, in inch from death you really realize how glad you are that it didn't happen.

I've been at that "inch" twice in my life, and both times I evaded death. Once by throwing up the pills/booze, the other time by hearing "someone" inside me say, "Take one more look around". Which I did, and seeing the beauty all around me, put down the pistol.

If you tell a person "you'll be glad this didn't happen", chances are good they'll get angry and vent something terribly on you...LET THEM VENT. Let them get angry. Let them cry. Let them do anything except kill themselves.

I just want to add to this encase anyone else does happen to be unfortunate to feel like that and remembers this, that even if you don't feel like you're glad to be alive straight away, one day you will.

I spent around 7 years with serious depression, more suicide attempts than anyone knows, and only since around this Christmas can I really say that I'm better.  But I'm so glad that I never managed it because being happy is so worth it.  I never thought that I would get there but I am and every time I think about it I'm so relieved that I did manage it.

That is what I'd call fate right there ... your mom coming home early ... you miraculously surviving ... Sometimes I honestly believe when things like that happen there's a "higher purpose" (nothing to do with religion) for you in life. You know what I mean?

I never did the pill thing, but I did the booze thing big time (and other non legal drugs). I feel like I survived sometimes just to tell others the tale - to tell them to not lose hope and that it does get better. Even with its ups and downs, life is so worth living.

Also, you may reconsider the getting drunk thing, even with friends. The time I nearly cashed out I WAS with friends who ended up just dropping me off in a heap at the hospital because they didn't know what else to do. I got lucky that my drunk friends even did that.

Hi Elijah.

I'm new here, and though I haven't gotten to know you or anyone else here yet, I wanted to reply to your post and let you know that I am very glad that you are recovering from this, and that I will still have the chance to get to know you here. *hugs*

Please take good care of yourself.

Oh Elijah,

That was not the brightest thing to do, but I'm so glad you are safe.

Your parents are there for you and you have family here so there is never a reason to be alone and suicidal. You have a great life ahead of you so enjoy it and live it.

Hugs Bro

Cindy

So glad to hear you're alright Elijah. It's very lucky that your Mum came home early - definitely weren't meant to leave this place yet. Take care of yourself.

Elijah, I don't know you very well, but you seem like a sincere and wonderful person.  I am so happy that you are still with us.  It is so easy to believe that you are alone - I know looking back at all the times I felt abandoned, there was always someone there - I was just blind to it.  We are here for you - and it's so true what AlecSky said:

I spent around 7 years with serious depression, more suicide attempts than anyone knows, and only since around this Christmas can I really say that I'm better.  But I'm so glad that I never managed it because being happy is so worth it.  I never thought that I would get there but I am and every time I think about it I'm so relieved that I did manage it.

I lived with my grandparents for 10 years - as a then 30-year-old and unemployed trans guy living in Bible Belt town of 700, I had resigned myself to the fact that I was going to just kill myself when my grandparents passed away.  Luckily, I waited - and met my wife.  She saved my life and I never saw it coming.  Now, just about 3 years later, I'm on T and looking forward to surgery next year.  It happens - it's worth waiting - and the "in the meantime" blows, but that's where places like Susan's comes in.  We do have people to reach out to - even if they're "words on a screen" to our eyes.  We are all real people here and offering real support.  Take care, mate.

Quote from: Elijah on July 05, 2012, 03:24:32 PM
...once you actually get close to it, like, in inch from death you really realize how glad you are that it didn't happen.

I'm glad it didn't happen also. I've always hoped I would get to meet you in person some day. You seem cool.

I don't have much to say other than I am so glad your mom came home early, we haven't really spoke directly but I follow your posts and you seem like an awesome guy and the world would have suffered a horrible loss.