Kristen I am sorry for you that the relationship didn't continue.
I am in the process of a divorce after more then 40 years of marrage. I wanted to stay with her but my wife said she would not stay if I went forward. So we are trying to sell the house and are splitting everthing down the middle.
I am sadden but ... more than anything relieved and happy that I now have total freedom to be me. In fact I am now excited about the divorce because I will get a name changed through it. We have now been separated for over a month and I feel very little sadness over it.
Recently I talk to my psychologist about the separation from my wife and the divorce. I ask her about my inability to feel more than a little sadden about it and instead being excited about my name change.
The answer seemed to be two fold.
My psycholist shared that it is normal for the hurt to come and go for awhile.
And that it seem my wife and I have been separated, physically and mentally, even as we lived together, for over 5 years already.
It made me feel better because I was worried that I was holding my feeling in and denying them.
I never want to do that again. I want to be honesty with myself, God and others.
Oh Kristin my wardrobe has been steadily increasing thanks to Goodwill and other resell stores.
Its a great way to get almost and sometimes new clothing at dirty cheap prices. At a couple of buck for item you could get allot for $280
