Hello All,
I'm Jillieann. I have always been a very sensitive person. After 54 years and have played with crossdress on and off since I was a teen. But only recently have I realized that I am a transgender (male to female) person. I have been wear female undies all the time for the last month. I'm taking this new self very slowly.
I have three kids and grandkids that I love. No one knows about me because I have been a role model male husband, father, and now Grandfather. 
I have been lurking on this site for over a week now and have read lots of great postings. Thanks for all the great tips.
I feel safe in posting here. Have seen how you all are so accepting but also very truthful with each other. I have already read about all the different types of transgender plus people and know that I don't fit any of them completely.
I'm a crossdresser and sometimes wish to be totally physical female, but not always.
Anyway hi to all.
Does anyone know how to put on nail polish without it looking rough and uneven? I tried putting on a clear under coat put it didn't help much.

Thanks 

Hi Jillieann,

Welcome to our transgender sister-hood!

As a tv/cd I feel like both genders....the reason why is I have lived a life of being a man....and I can't or don't even want to change that. So I am a man with a lifetime of experance....a succefull procreater, but I have always had a femme side. A side I hid and tried very hard to denie. Over the years my femme side grew and got uptight because it was so unfair to not be true. We all come to that reailiztion evenually. We are not 2 people...a male and female....we are one person is male and female.

Love
DebTV

Hello Jillieann,

                  Welcome to Susan's.  Many TG's do not fit into one specific catagory so you are not alone. I can't help with the nail polish question, I just wear clear sometimes but there are lots here who will help.


beth

 

Quotehow to put on nail polish without it looking rough and uneven?

quickly and smoothly.

If you haven't developed the "touch" yet, try darker colors rather then lighter ones or Red, which is probably one of the hardest colors to work with .... you gotta be good for Red.  Darker colors seem to blend better and usually seem to dry faster.  I like Browns and Coppers mostly and sometimes Red, but generally if in that mood Lavender or plum, but what am I saying, I peeled of all the french tips a few months ago and managed to slam a door on my number one finger, turning almost the entire nail black, then as it started growing back out I been triming the top nail off from the bottom up as the new nail grows out beneith it.  Looks horrible, no uise taking the time to paint that puppy.

Terri

Hi Jillieann,

Welcome to Susan's. As you have already found out we are a pretty accepting bunch who often fallover ourselves to be helpful. So here goes some suggestions.

QuoteI have already read about all the different types of transgender plus people and know that I don't fit any of them completely.

I would be surprised if you did fit completely a particular type. This is because we I believe we are in fact not types so much as positioned on a continuum. While we maybe close to another on the continuum there will be differences between us and the others near us on the continuum. The differences are what makes us human, that is no two humans are the same, there will always be subtle differneces and sometimes less than subtle ones. My advice is to try on the experiences of others and compare yourself to them. Some will be good fits others not. The ones that fit well give you an inkling of where you are on the continuum and those that don't fit will show you where you are not. Both will help you on your journey of self discovery.

QuoteDoes anyone know how to put on nail polish without it looking rough and uneven?

The best advice is practice, practice and practice. You probably know that already so we can move onto suggestion number 2.

You need to have your hands supported in order to control your movements. If your right handed place the applicator in your right and with the heel of your hand on a table or some such. Place the left hand with the nail you wish to paint within reach of the applicator end with the polish on it again with the heel of the hand on the table. The reason for placing the heels on the table is so that both target nail and applicator are steady.

The trick to a neat finish is in how you use the applicator. Like when using  a paintbrush to cut in use the very tip of the applicator starting at the cutical and move the tip toward the end of the fingernail.

Suggestion number 3. Practice with watercolours using an artist brush saves using up polish and being overcome by the remover because of over use.

Hope this helps.

Shelley.

Welcome Jillieann,

Now that you've introduced yourself don't be afraid to participate, and express your views on the various topics that you see posted, and be sure to post your own.  As you have realised there's lot of information here, but more importantly there are lots of supportive people, take advantage of us, that's what Susan's is all about.

Enjoy your stay,

Steph

Thanks girls for your kind words and help.
I really feel like a young girl just learning who she is.
I'm glad I have all of you to share my feelings and up's and downs on the long journey.
I didn't want to go through this alone anymore.
Thanks again and thank you Susan for this place.
Jillieann 

Quote from: Terri-Gene on November 12, 2005, 12:29:36 AM
If you haven't developed the "touch" yet, try darker colors rather then lighter ones or Red, which is probably one of the hardest colors to work with .... you gotta be good for Red.  Darker colors seem to blend better and usually seem to dry faster.

I agree red is very unforgiving when doing nails.  I actually did the opposite and used light colors, pinks and fleshtones, until I developed the touch because mistakes were virtually invisible.  I also added the second coat a day later to better correct small mistakes.  If you're placing the second only and hour or two after the first, the bottom coat is still a bit soft and can smudge or slip.

Dawn

Did somebody say something about being overcome by remover?  Ahhhhh, fumes. 

Hi Jillieann. Welcome to Susan's. You've gotten quite a few welcomes already so I'm sure by now you've got the idea that we are a pretty freindly bunch. So fix yourself a cup of tea or other relaxing beverage, sit down, take your shoes off and set a spell.

Good Journey,

Cassie

Hi Jullieann,
  Welcome to Susans. The only help I can be with you question is to take your time and work in smooth strokes..
Nice to meet you. And have fun.

hey Jillieann,
thought I should add my welcome to the list: welcome! nice to meet you!
I'm Alex, and I feel I don't fit any category at all.
talk to you later!

unicorn

Hi Jillieann,

Welcome!  I am in much the same situation as you.  Have always been very sensitive, have two young boys, a loving wife, and large family.  I have always admired and envied women for the things they "get to do".  I am a cross dresser, and I love the feeling of female clothes, but don't get the chance as often as I would like.  I haven't worn nail polish in a long time, but when I did, I know that it was a lot like painting, you don't want to put the second coat on too soon.  You have to give the first coat plenty of time to dry.  I'm definitely no expert and am hoping the friendly and compassionate girls on this site can give me some pointers as well.  Good luck and I look forward to talking to you again.

Lisabeth

Hi Jillieann,

Thanks for sharing!  I can relate to bits and pieces of many experiences on this site and on your thread.  I have no idea how I would classify myself but it is nice to find people that are sensitive to various comments and questions. 

I too have a great family (wife and children) and make friends easily with both sexes.  When I was young I thought I was a girl and acted as such.  By the time I was 18 I started to change my mind to equal my body.  To the outside world I was successful. 

Last year I decided I would suffer any consequences and change my body to equal my mind.  Fortunate for me I found this site a few weeks ago.

Although I would prefer to be a female and be recognized as a female I did not realize what "any consequences" meant until I read many threads.  I was shocked to learn from several individuals that many churches would not accept a transgendered person. 

In fact I have suppressed my feminine side for so long that I can not even tell you how to apply your nail polish!

Glad to read your posts!

Hi Wendy,
I'm glad to meet you. Thank you for your kind words.
Wow, that's an interesting personal history. I would love to be able to remember being a little girl. I feel like I missed allot not grown know and living as girl. But instead I grew up as a misfit. In my teen years I became interested in girls and began living and acting like a man. I put on a male face and for over 30 years have worn a beard to prove it.

This is a great site and there are lots of helpful people here.
The consequences of changing body to equal mind according to the accounts her can leave you with nothing. No job, money, friends, or even family.

If you have read some of my comment on other postings you will see that I call myself a CD plus.
The woman is out mentally and spiritually speaking (I am not pretending to be a male any longer) and she has changed my body some what but I don't plan on any surgery and for now no hormones. I prefer dressing as a woman, so I do it when I can.

Oh I'm still practicing putting on nail polish. Not sure I'm getting any better at it though.

Talk Later,

Jillieann

Jillieann, one thing that might help (on the basis of the few times I've done that) is applying more, thin coats. Take most of the polish off the brush before you apply, let the first coat dry, and then touch up, again with a very thin coat. Kinda like painting.

Also, kinda like painting, you're more apt to notice flaws than others will.

Dennis

Of course, the answer to nail polish question is the same as the answer to the musician who asked a cab driver how to get to Carnegie Hall:

Practice!                Practice!!                   Practice!!!