Uhh...definitely surprised at the number of people who seem to think you need to depend on hormones to live as your real self. It's really not necessary. And not all transguys go on T or stay on T after starting and many of those guys still live 100% male.
Edge, I would honestly go for it if I were you. The minute I found out what trans was/that transguys existed I started trying to be recognised as male little by little starting with friends/acquaintances/strangers to school to work etc. It may have been scary at first and I may have run into some issues because of it, but honestly the alternative was so much worse. And I know now that I would have regretted it far more had I not gone for who I was and what I wanted. Just think about yourself in a year or two years time. What will you have regretted more? Having tried and so made some progress, even if slight? Or pretending to be someone you're not and feeling like you've barely budged? I could barely stand pretending to be female before I knew that trans existed let alone afterwards. Sometimes you'll feel afraid, sometimes you'll feel embarrassed, sometimes you'll feel humiliated...but other times you'll look back at what could have been and you'll feel happy beyond belief at least knowing that things are getting better, even if only a little.
Just because not everyone will recognise you as male does not mean you should give up or that you shouldn't try and live that way yourself anyways. Hormones are definitely not necessary either if you don't have the means or if its not what you want! That's something that gets peddled way too much here. Yeah it takes courage at first because you may be unsure about how people will react, but that's generally good practice for life. Sometimes life takes courage, and once you take the first step it gets much less intimidating until it just becomes the way things are.
So yes, I do think you should start university as the guy that you are no matter if you're currently on hormones or not or if you even plan on taking them or not. Talk to your professors in private to explain the situation and talk to any other university officials that you need to speak to. And I'd also get in contact with the local university lgbt group if there is one because they can make you aware of information you otherwise would have no idea about. At my university, I found out through them that trans people could easily change their name and sex marker on university files without having done so legally, I gained access to lists of gender neutral washrooms across campus, support centres, counselors, social events, university health care coverage for those who are planning to go on T and even courses that focus on trans issues! So I'd definitely recommend doing that if there's the option!
And just because Bruce Lee is always right...
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