Hey guys. Haven't been on in a few months for a variety of reasons, so I thought I'd touch base. I did get my legal name change back in May, so I've legally been Devin Scott all summer. I was supposed to start T in June, but I got a little scared with the name change less than a week before. I think it was too many huge steps at once and I got a little freaked out and backed out of starting T just then.
I did get a new job yesterday. Since I'm pre-T and my voice really doesn't pass, I went to interviews in female clothing. Imagine my shock when the dudes from RadioShack drag me into their store and start trying to practically sell me a job while calling me he and man and bro and stuff the whole time while I'm standing there in flairleg dress pants and my sister's high heeled boots. I'm a little nervous now. I checked male on the actual application and obviously when I start work I'm gonna wear male dress clothes (their policy is black dress pants and shoes and red dress shirt). I'm really nervous though about what happens when they start figuring it out. For example, if they want to friend me on Facebook I've got hundreds of photos of me from before. Or when one of them questions my voice or customers are calling me she from my voice or whatever. I don't feel like I'm lying or anything and I'm actually looking forward to having a place I can really test out guy mode since I haven't really been in an environment where I've been perceived as male long term before. But like I said-- I'm worried what's gonna happen when they find out.
